you're a mystery yourself
i really wanted to blog but i no mood suddenly
partly bcos of my dearest mum bcos she dont let me go swimming!
tell me ppl what the hell is wrong in going swimming!
I.R.R.I.T.A.T.I.N.G!
&the beauty.
i am feeling so lonely at this moment.
&the beauty.
k blogging blogging!
i shall start frm last fri
i went universal studios!
fun nice but the rain spoilt the fun!
but we still had fun in the rain!
came home bath and went out agian for dinner with 09s29..great to meet them!
then sat
went out with my group of rubbish friends! raining agian so we just go catch a movie at bugis- mission impossible! it was great! like really so interesting!
came home and did one fruit cake
then sunday-christmas!
woke up early do another fruit cake! then went to my paternal aunt's house for christmas celebration!i drank wine! haha! but it was really bitter!
came home and do another fruit cake then go my maternal aunt's house for family gathering cum christmas celebration!- i was eating the whole day!
came home really late!
oh why i do so many cake
1 for my family
1 for my aunt cos she ask
1 for the next day chalet!
monday went for thesupposed ics chalet/bbq
you know how many turned up? 3
great rite?
we met at like 9.30am
reach pasir ris at like 11am
then we go catch a tamil movie which was a big big big flop!
gosh! it was really stupid!
then went to the chalet ate icecream watch another movie in the chalet bbq ate talked.
then sathia's army friends started coming so me and hafizah lft!
reached home at like 9.15pm
quite tired!
and today morning again i'm rotting!
hmph! rot rot rot!
nothing else to do!
&the beauty.
seriously! fb is getting more and more boring each day! gosh!
k last min meet up with liuqi!
glad she called me out! cos i'm rotting at home like everyday!
geh! ppl pls follow her example and if you are bored too i can accompany you in being bored too!
yup1
bye!
&the beauty.
I.AM.SO.BORED!
gah! i'm faced with endless days of emptiness! omg!
can someone be sooo bored!
i just sit at home and stare at the walls! ahhh!!!1 so so so boring!
schedule for this week:
21st dec- shopping with whole family for my trip
23rd dec- uss with cousin and bro andclass outing at night
24th dec- to the zoo with sec sch friends
25th dec- christmas party at aunt's house
26th dec- ics outing!
i super cant wait for class dinner, zoo and the ics outing:)
k i'm so bored i dunno what to blog also!
&the beauty.
when you expect something to happen it doesnt,
but when you dont expect it to happen it happens:)
&the beauty.
blogging blogging! firstly apologies for my long absence and another apology for my super emo post...i just had to write it.
yup! k updates!
last last friday (02/12)i went to see breaking dawn with hafizah.i tot the movie was really nice!! i liked the action and emotions in the movie! but i didnt know if hafizah understood the movie cos she nvr follow the seies and stuff so i had to summarise 4 books in 5 mins b4 the movie for her.haha! but i enjoyed it!
k then nothing till last monday(05/12), i went swimming with liuqi! i think we talk more then we swim haha! and the swimming pool damn cold!!!
haha! we talked quite alot! and i had a wonderful time! yay1 thanks liuqi!
then i thurs(08/12) i had prayers in temple! came back quite late and tired!
sat my normal singing lessons.
nothing
nothing
nothing
monday(12/12)
outing with my sec sch close freinds- vathsala and hafizah
we went o the museum then walked quite long in orchard to find restuarant to eat! haha! and we settled for jack's place in the heren
and whoa we really talk alot cos its been ages since we met up and we used to be super close in lower sec! we talked about our past memories, whatever we missed with each other and our present lives as well!! i so miss them! and it was great to meet up!
hafizah and vathsala were my first friends in sec sch!
yup!
tuesday(13/12)
zan's birthday!
happy birthday!!!
haha!
i had tuition!
wednesday(14/12)
tuition in the morning
then met up with vathsala to go for swimming at 4.
and thats when it started to pour and there was lightning and all that!
haiz! so we wait outside jw swimming complex and talk alot for 2 hrs! at 6 then they open so we went in and swam!
swam for 1hr plus. and then lazy river which we talked and talked and talked! coming home also talk and talk and talk!
haha! omg! i miss her soo much!
haha!and i'm so glad i met up with her!
thursday(15/12)
supposed to go universal studios but my cousin cancelled:(
so going nxt week like that!
but instead i went imm with mum and bro! shopped abit and came back!
then all of them ditch me to go to the gym! so i'm home alone! and super bored!
i'm so bored these days! i think bcos i was like super bz with tuitions for the past months and suddenly all stop so like no tuitions suddely i have to sit at home and do nothing! haiz!
yup! thats it tmr i got tuition and sat too! sat will mark the official last tuition then after that i really nothing to do!
haiz!
okay plans i have so far
next week(i dunno when)- universal studios
24th- zoo with my sec sch friends
25th- christmas celebration with my family
26th- whole day gathering with ics ppl
thats! other dyas i'm free!
k and i'll blog when i have something to blog nxt!
I AM SO B.O.R.E.D!
&the beauty.
you cant always be right rite?
but you nvr listen to me! nvr! is it becos i'm the youngest so anything i say wont make sense or is it becos i'm a gal
you claim your anger is so much in control ever since you went delhi last year bcos of the spiritual experince there- hear it form me now, your anger has actl double folded you get so angry at such trivial things!
i nvr was rude to you but you think i'm rude!
i nvr had a reason to lie to you so i dont but you think i lie!
i nvr had a boyfriend or even close to choosing a boyfriend but you think i have a boyfriend and i'm alwyas going out with my boyfriend
i nvr did anything you thought of me b ut you still suspected me!
i try not to really think of those piercing words you say to me but i cant help it! they just go straight to my heart and prick it so hard!
i cant help that!~ but you can help to lessen those words! but you dont even try!
each time i tell myself dont cry for all this i cant help those few tears that escape my eyes!
its really not funny to suspect time and time again when i really dont do anything!
the sad truth is that i really dont have anybody to rely on or fall back on when i'm hurt!
you nvr agree its your fault cos you are always thinking you are right!
ignore me all you want! say no to all the help i want to give!
in the end i'm the one whose gonna help you out and take care of you cos believe it anot he is not going to care for you!
but you still give him everything! and keep saying he's such a poor thing
he doesnt do something you ask you keep quiet for 5 mins in which time i'll go and do it for him and then you'll start talking as cheerfully as b4.
but if i dont do it it becomes a big fuss- and you are screaming at me and ignoring me for 2 to 3 days! and you talk about treating children fairly! ha!
if you dont want to spend for mr say it! you dont have to buy it and then keep saying you bought things for me in your money!
you dont even appreciate that i exist and here iam worrying about you for nxt year cos i wont be here to hel[ you and you beloved son will definetly not help you!
i knew you were always like that suspecting me ignoring me and just ignoring my presensse but i nvr tot he would turn against me!
i always thought he supported mme and would nvr suspect me but i nvr knew he was the silent killer who says few words and those few words just kill you.
how could you even say such a thing!
i've become soo cheap for you!
how could you say i go behind boys!
and thats not even the worst thing you say! i dun want to mention it here! but when you said it theres no taking back!
how could you even say that!
whats there in hurting me so much and not trusting me!
you trust the wrong person and not me!
i always tellmyeslf tha i dont nned to prove myself to you but i cant !its in my nature to clear eveything inmy name!
but the thing is ive tried so many bloody times to no avail! you are so stubborn to trust your stupid misconception and not me and the truth!
now i even think u are relieved you are getting rid of me even though its temporary!
but mark my words you will be ashames of yourself one day! i assure you that!
&the beauty.
