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hey ppl!!!
i dont know what to blog about suddenly! haha!
but k i wanted to say somethng that
um i wish that particular person would stop making feel bad!!1
like pls!!!
i am really feeling bad!
you are just making me feel even more bad and sad!
so pls dont cos after a very long time i am feeling good and happy!
its as if you are tracking me and watching my mood day by day! when i'm low you just keep quiet and when my mood lifts you say something to make me feel bad again!
pls!
i m not in a good situation now so pls be a lttle more understanding ! thanks!
&the beauty.
ive got alot of things to blog about!!!
1. today is one of the most happiest days in my life!!!!
i had tears of joy once i read the email!!!
i got accepted at last!!!! like really accepted!!1 you know how wonderful the word 'pleased' seems!!!! i love that word man!!!
2. immediately after reading the mail i msg my dad, mum and bro!
and my bro send me congrats, and there was no reply from my parents!
and since i was like bursting from happiness i called my mum 3-4 times and she didnt pick up even once!!!!
then she called back 1 hr later to ask me whats the matter!!! my happy mood just fly away!
then my dad call me nxt and ask me why i call him!
wah!!!no comments man! i feel so happy that i got accepted and then when i share the news to my family the reaction is like -.-!
sadness!!!
3. i'm starting the pri 4 tuition tmr! i'm kinda excited cos pri 4 abit more tougher maths stuff! and can think one so i like!
pri 1 and pri 2 like the basics of the basics!so abit boring!
yay!
4.the gals outing that i have proposed in fb to the indian gals is like so wasted cos no one except the usual 7 enthu ones reply!
and reply also they nvr state what restaurant they want to go!
i will just decide for them but later sure they come and complian!!!
argh!!!
5. finally going out wit liuqi this thurs!yay!
6. bye! gtg for tuition! hehe! bye!
&the beauty.
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just when i have a taken a decision something must happen the next day itself to shake that decision!
then something else will happen on the same night which will make me angry and change my decision again!
i'm not flicker minded but i just cant help myself in this context!!!
its irritating!
and another thing i dont like guys! wanted to post it on my bro's wall but i decided not too!
cos i dont dislike my bro its the y chromosome that i dislike!
irritating! seriously !
haiz!
friday i'm going out with my lovely sec sch friends! cnt wait!!!
k byes!
&the beauty.
hi peeps
i know i'm supposed to upload my bro's 21st birthday celeb photos but i lazy! hehe!
and i'm in a different sort of reflective mood! so i'll upload later or maybe the next time
my post is gonna be a little reflective!
ive got three main things to talk about!
but b4 that i would like to pay my respects to my singing teacher's father who passed away peacefully yesterday.
may his soul rest in peace
k thats over and now my first thing tthat i would like to clarify
1. Why i hate smokers and people who drink?
at least 2 ppl asked me this already and my answer to them was "i just dont like them"
but i gave it a thought and here is why i dun like them
firstly its bcos ive had bad experience with ppl who get drunk.
in my sec sch days, when i'm travelling in buses and ive heard about many abuse cases regarding ppl who drink against woman! and mind you i'm sort of a feminist!
i hate ppl abusing females!
thats one and i dun like them bcos they do it bcos they think of themselves only- just bcos its cool, just bcos they are in emotional pain or physical pain they smoke or drink. they dont even think about the others in the society- the amount of discomfort or how hurt your family members would be if they find out or even see you smoking or drinking!
i think its really irresponsible! and i would say foolish!
its not cool when you are killing yourself slowly this way- you dont even have the rights to take a life that was given to you by your parents!
but yet you are and also hurting your parents or your loved ones by doing it!
so therefore in conclusion i hate them mainly bcos they are selfish!
2. my mum asked me why i'm so secretive.
k i shall explain why she asked me that
my parents are forever wanting to use my computer to search things and also sometimes they come and stand behind me when i'm in facebook or something
and I.HATE.IT.TO.THE.CORE!
so i will just navigate away or scroll abot so they cant read anything, so my mum ask me why i so secretive when i close the facebook page suddenly and i didnt answer her that day!
but yeah this is the answer to why i'm so secretive
oh and i forgot to add a point my parents think i'm seccretive bcos i've a boyfriend or i'm like going to get into a realtionship kind!
yep!
so b4 answering why i'm so secretive i will like to tell the world and not only my parents that I.DO.NOT.HAVE.A.BOYFRIEND. yup! I DO NOT! UNDERSTAND!!!NO BOYFRIEND!
AND I DUN PLAN TO HAVE ONE IN THE NXT COUPLE OF YEARS AS WELL!!!!
get it!
ok so now to why i'm so secretive, as i said i hate it when they just come up behind me reading everything i'm chatting with my friends
but i think its rude! really rude!
and i respect my privecy as well as the other persons privacy alot!!!!
and if you havent know yet I.AM.A.VERY.PRIVATE.PERSON!
get it!
i'm shy and i dont share everything with everybody! get it!
i have my own personal sapce which i value alot, so dont come in without my permission! its just that i am a very private person and not that i am hiding something!
ive got nothing to hide!
and i have told my mum about every male friend i have! and my mum sort of knows them as well!
so its super clear that i'm not hiding anything!
crazy!
not only on facebook! but worst my handphone gets kidnapped at times and my messages are read! how polite is that rite?
and i dun even peep when people are msging, cos i know its super rude to do that! but here apparently my privacy and feelings are not respected!
so every guy that messages me becomes my boyfriend!
you know i dont mind if you are doing it for fun and to tease me, but i mind my messages being read and i mind being paired up with not so nice ppl!
hello! my feelings are at stake here!
argh!!!!
thirdly, actl i changed my mind on this i'm not gonna blog about it!
maybe i'll just touch and go
patience have definetly taught me a lesson in a good way and its bcos i waited and its bcos i said no that ive learnt the lesson to tell the difference between whats real and whats just for the past time!
and as i believe slow and steady wins the race- same theory applys to this also, as long as i take it slowly and dun rush into it my feelings would be spared and i wouldnt have to be hurt!
so i'm thankful ive got patience! thanks!
yup!
k thats it!
bye!
&the beauty.
hey peeps!
ive been going out like for the continuous past 3 days! my feet are super painful!
tuesday went to british council then went to clementi mall for abit of shopping where mum met her relatives whom she hasnt seen in like 18 to 20 years!
long time right!
yeah! super tired there!
yesterday went jp- got fathers' day gifts, my cousins birthday present, 2 dresses for myself(super cheap i tell you 2 dresses for below $30)and a bag for myself! yay!
today we went to serangoon road to collect bro's birthday photos but its not rready yrt! and this the 3rd time already!!!! wdh!
tmr ive got singing class!
ive got a new p4 tuition!
i'll upload bros birthday photos in nxt entry!
i'm sleep deprived at the moment!!!
and oh ya! breaking dawn's trailer is out already!!! go watch ppl!!!!
i'm so excited! but it comes out nov 2011! and part 1 only!!!
gah!guess ive to wait long long!
i'm always waiting!
haiz!
anw nxtweek! mon going out with jc friends, tues tuition, wed got tuition, thurs got singing class and fri tuition and going out with liuqi! yays!
k bye people!
&the beauty.
i think ive lost my laughter and my smile
i dunno i have not laughed my heart out in a long time
i havent laughed till it ached!
ive lost my cheerfulness..
i realised this yesterday when i found nava's christmas card for me and she mentioned there about my cheerfulness and smile, thats when i realised i ve lost my cheer and smile.
i cant find ways to make myself smile, yes its ways to make myself smile and not find someone or have someone there to make me smile!
somehow whenever i become close to someone after a few weeks or few months they just disappear.
i dunt know why
i feel lost and confused. really
and thats partially bcos for the 101th time ive learnt my lesson not to trust anyone fully.
i dunno i just trust people, and they will just disappear sometime.
i need a jacob black(not taylor lautner but the character)
the warm and uunderstanding friend who'll be there for me
i need to laugh, i need to smile fully from my heart.
i'm sorry to my readers(dont really know if ppl still read my blog). i'm trying my best not to blog this kind of posts but i cant help it.
i need to smiile naturally.
&the beauty.
