you're a mystery yourself
i am beginning to dislike logging in to facebook because it is constantly kinda discouraging me!
but i refuse to let my optimism down whatever it is!
&the beauty.
i really dunno why i am going through this!
was this my fault?
that i choose to do something that has brought it this far and has been disturbing my thoughts almost every minute?
i feel bad for doing that, but at the same time i dont know what i'm doing!
i'm not able to move on or give it up
i really dunno what i m doing!
and i'm sick of waiting!
sick of waiting for uni results, sick of waiting for the truth to just come out from someone, sick of waiting for the phonecall regarding the party, sick of wiating for the day to past, sick of waiting for messages, sick of the whole week to past by like that!
i'm just sick of wiating!
and i'm sick of having no aim everyday and just aimlessly passing every moment!
argh!
today has been the most aimless and boring day ive ever experienced1
i would mostly have at least one thing to do almost everyday, but i dont know why today has just been empty!
like literaaly empty that it has started to make me think of all kind of things!
&the beauty.
my bro's birthday invitation cards!!!
nice?
i designed them!!!
the gold one
the purple one
yes1 mailing is done!!!
nxt step words for the birthday and all the decorations!!!
there's like 2 weeks left!
okay! today i went swimming with nava and we met sahana there!
what a small world!
haha1
we swam and played all kinda nonsense!
hehe!
yup until i'm super sunburned, tanned, and my nose is red now!!!
hehe!
but it feels great to exercise!
yay!!!
i swam!!!
okay! lameness of myself!
oh i'm sorry to people who chat with me on msn today that i nvr reply you properly, i was bz mailing the invitation card-thats no.1, no2 my mum come back from work and kept coming inside my room to disturb me! idk why she in such good mood also!
okay yup!
ive got singing class on thurs and on fri i'm going shopping with my cousin!!!
yays i'm so excited!!!
yay!
i'm in super good mood after swimming and i think its also because my friend say my invitation card looks nice! yay!- cos my parents nvr say its nice they just nod(i was so upset i tell you)
okay! bye peeps!!!
love ya!
&the beauty.
hi guys!
back to blog!
k blogging mainly because i feel like reflecting!
something that happened today just made me reflect or maybe just think..
i m upset at the moment- which im not supposed to be but i dont know just upset.
and i dont feel like talking to anyone rite now
but i have to say that incident has definetly brought me to the right thinking.
i have been focusing on the wrong thing- k rather than wrong i should say not the most suitable thing i should be focused on and thinking off at this point of time.
i should have focused and being worried on the other thing but i was more worried of the second thing!
if you dont understand what im saying then its ok! i m just letting go of my feelings!
but whatever it is i am thankful for that incident for having woken me up!
on a lighter note i am going swimming with nava tmr!
yays!
&the beauty.
hey ppl!
i have officially finished designing bro's birthday card and also its ready to be sent out... just waiting for parents to come back and see then its ready to be sent out!!!
its simple cos parents wanted to keep it simple! but not so easy though, i had to write the same thing for 20 cards!- neck pain hand pain!
but i am satisfied with the end product even though i am not really happy with it.
hehe!
i mopped the whole house yesterday and i m aching all over now!!!!
my god!!!- but it means i'm exercising and its good!!
hehe!
i have decided to go for another camp from23-25may.
but i wont tell them yet cos what if something crops up suddenly!
yeah!
plan to go swimming with nava on monday, just a quiet swim but then i rmbered that jurong east swimming complex would be closed! so have to find other places to go swim!
yup! havent swim in ages!
my next project would be the wordings for the happy birthday!
i have tuition tmr!!!!i shifted it to the morning cos its an holiday!
yup!
k i really got nothing to blog about already!
bye guys!
&the beauty.
i have to say the anger has definatly subsided and your actions are making me smile! i just cant stop smiling! or even laughing to myself!!!!
thanks for making me smile!!!
haha!
yes! hi guys!
went to plaza sing to find invitation cards for bro's birthday!
and finally finally got it!
so preparations for birthday is in half swing!
haha!havent full swing yet!
yup!
okay got go...searching for ideas for the birthday card!
&the beauty.
k i'm back from the super duper bz day i had!!!
8.00am - woke up had tuition till 10.30am
today's tuition was not as bad as yesterday!!
he was just stoning all the way throughtout- i was so fustrated really it changed my mood and was super irritated that i told the mum
and you know what the mum said?
"is it? but he was so excited to come to your class, he kept saying today got your class in the morning and even after sch"
and to tell you the truth it made me smile but not for long - the irritation still persisted!
yup!
but today he was much much better!
10.30am- 11.00am was doing tuition stuff while waiting for parents to get ready!
11.00am set off to james cook university
reach ther at around 11.35-11.40
had a campus tour so it was like 2pm when we got out!
headed to the verge in serangoon road to get all the birthday stuff for bro's birthday!
till like 3.15pm!
ate lunch after that till 4pm
then mum wanted to get some things at the tekka market so followed her there
left serangoon road at around 4.30pm
reached home at around 5pm
ran to the shop nearby my house to get a baby set as gift for my friends baby(she just delivered and invited me to her baby's naming ceremony)
reached home at 5.30pm which was supposed to be the time which i should get out of the house1
so i did everything in lighting speed and left house at 5.45pm
reached je mrt at 6pm sharp
met sathiya priya and we took on the super long journey to tampines!!!
damn far!
but we talked for most of the trip!
so it seemed faster!
the baby was relly cute!!!
haha
after the ceremony took some photos then left at around 9.15pm
and agian the uper long journey!
reached home at 10.40pm!
bathe, eat, watch tv and blogging now!
and i have
&the beauty.
today is the tamil new year!!! so happy new year to all indians out there!!
i woke up with high spirits and was happy all the way till few minutes ago!
firstly, i'll talk about the tamil new yaer!
i dont rmb this amount of excitement and celebration few years ago also!
like i dont know why suddenly they recognize it and celebrating it in such a grand way! but whatever..its nice to know they are celebrating it in the radio, the tv and many more!
and also i love festivals so im enjoying it!!!
and ya i cant wait for diwali cos like for the past 3 years i have been celebrating diwali really quitely bcos of exams exams and exams! so i really cant wait for diwali!!!
yeah
and a few minutes ago i read something that someone posted and my excitement and happiness just fell!!!!
god! i hate it!
but its okay! i'll stay strong!....if its being done purposely!
i have singing class today which classes with my aishwarya rai's movie at night!!!
i ahve to basically fly home!!!! how i wish i had a broom to fly on or i was in the harry potter world, i could just apparate!
and if i was i in the harrypotter world i could just stupefy that particular person
or just perform the ridikulus charm!
argh!
k bye ppl! and happy new year again!
&the beauty.
I AM SO NOT TALKING TO THAT PARTICULAR PERSON!! WHATEVER COMES MY WAY!!!
i am seriously angry!!!!
it was not even my fault lah!!!!
idiots!!
i so need a person to talk to and complai to...
like i really need someone to blast out!!!
but apparently everyone's too bz with their lives to even talk a few words with me!!!
what would you say if a person is talking to you like quite often and suddenly they tell you to keep in touch!!!
like its like telling in your face i dont want to talk to you anymore!!!
i feel angry!!!! argh!!!
i really need to talk to someone to burst my feelings cos i cant say everything in the blog!!!
like over lunch or something!!!
but like i said, no one will come so whats the point...i shall just talk to myself!
how pathetic am i!!!
okay but i think i am already pathetic, i went to imm with me myself and i to shop for bro's birthday!
i walked the whole imm like i think twice!!!
and the nxt day supposed to go plaza sing by myself again but mum say she want come along so we are going on sat!
but in a way i'm getting used to the loneliness but im scared to get used to it as well! but i have to admit going imm alone, i felt abit independent and i like the feeling!!
and i have to say by that keep in touch thingy, i feel i have been taught the lesson of dont rust anyone again!!!
i feel weak that i trusted that person! but not anymore!
thanks for making me wake up!
thanks
k i feel better now:)
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
k updating!!!
i got alot of things to tell!
1. went out with cousins and aunts today!!! yays! photos below!!!
as usual i was excited to see everything! haha
simple boat also i excited!
haha! headed to clarke quay after tuition today...
ate icecream(super nice), then walked around abbit then headed to marina bay sands!
ate lunch there and then walked around!
i was exxcited at the lion king exhibition, the ferrari shop that had a ferrari car(the F1 kind), the sampan boat that is in mbs, at prada and everythig there actl!!!
haha!
yup! its was really good going out with them!
yayness!
2. my cousin promised to go shopping with me after her course finishes!!! yayness!!! looking forward to it! cos seriously and truely speaking she's the best shopping partner!!!!yays!
3. there's this idiot trying to put up an act!!!
but i'm left in a confused state now!
k not now about 10 mins ago cos i just took a decision that i will nvr talk to taht person again ever!!!
until that person talks to me PROPERLY and not those one word kinda answers!
god!!! i am angry with myself for even taking the effort to talk to that person!!
how rude! one word answers!!!
and that person was the one talking so much in the beginning...
you know i think something happened!
the field is always greener on the other side
yup!
k wadever!
ya!
k byes my darlings!
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
i watched sucker punch today! and it was nice!
oh with sanjana!
we met at 11(actl 11.15)i was late cos had to finish household chores than go!
movie was nice!! womaxn power but i dont agree with the ending! quite unfair!!!
yup!
then we were supposed to go shopping, but sanjana didnt want to go so i went shopping on my own!
i searched for a bag, went popular, went find mum a pencil box and a water bottle, pack lunch and then proceeded home.
while in jurong point guess who i met...dearest ahtherai!!!
so nice to see her! really i was so in good mood after i saw her! haha!
then in the bus saw this ex-sch mate...i think she was in in A01 i think lah...but she was in my geog lecture lah... ya...
and she came to sit beside me in the bus...i think she knew me, but quite odd rite, usually you would not sit beside a person you think you know...but oh well! doesnt matter!
after coming home ate lunch and spring cleaned my house! how good i am!!
i'm such an angel!!!
say myself haha!!!
i hate mondays cos i goes exceptionally slow!!!
god!!!
then groccery shopping with mum
oh i had a nightmare yesterday! actl morning mare
it was so scary!!! i woke up breathing so heavily like i run 2.4 like that!!!
so scary!
ya....thats today!!!
i feel like i'm drifting away from my friends ....idk me or them!!!
i dunno whether i should like just continue talking to them or dont cos idk whether they actl want talk to me anot!!
damn sad k!!!
like everyone just shutting down my window in their computers!!
ya!!! but you know an odd thing! however sad inside i am and how much of the feeling i get that my friends are drifting away...i dunno i cant help but feel happy all day long!
haha!
i also dunno why! i have a feeling its singing classes! but who cares! i m happy and optimistic!
can already!
haha
my mum is starting to think that i'm lazy and all that cos i m not working ! wadever!
now she want me go for classes! foreign language classes!!!
i think i'll end up laughing in the lessons!!!!
yup! thats it! bye guys!
&the beauty.
yes iam bored!!! entertain me!!!!
i have like so many freinds, but somehow nobody willing to chat with me!!!!
all my chatty friends are either too bz or they just went on with their lives!!!! forgetting me!!!!
:(
anyway i havent been to the lib yet!
haha
planned schedule for nxt week so far is, monday shopping and movie with sanjana and two other havent confirmed people!!!
tuesday rot at home!
wednesday prayers at home(so i'll be bz)
thursday rot at home in the afternoon and singing classes in the evening
friday rot at home!
seriously everytime monday comes i only look forward to thursday bcos of my singing classes! like seriously!!!
i am so bored!
oh i told you im taking up tuition rite!
during tuition class i can like sleep actl!!!
everything mives like a tortoise during lessons!!!!
i almost lost my patience on friday! haha...but i didnt!!!
for that i think i deserve some award!
haha!
I WANT TO GO SWIMMING!!!!
ITS BEEN AGES!!!
last time i went was with liuqi during the a'level period....i think 1 or 2 weeks before A's!
that is so long ago!!!!!
yesterday on vasantham they screened this classical dance film, and everytime i see that film i'll get inspired to start dance again! then i'll rmb my last dance teacher and be de-inspired!!!! haha!
yeah!
k i dunno wad to blog already so bye my darlings!!!
love ya!
&the beauty.
