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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

10:07 PM

as promised...deepavali 2009 with 09S29!

&the beauty.

9:57 PM

hmm...is talking the only way to solve things...
wish i could gues keep quite all dya long and have nobody talking to me...
u know the feeling of irritation when people ask u stupid questions and doesnt agree with u... and all that...i think i m getting more of the feelings...
the two opposing parties talked to the third party each....
without even thinking how much the party can take in...
or maybe they trust the 3rd party
or wadever...but they certainly have left the third party in vacuum.
and theres of course theno link person being an extra trying put his/her nose inside..
wad stupidity!
i need a break!

&the beauty.

7:40 PM

some things are best unsaid

some things are best said

but the thing is how u control both of them....

it can be really sad when u get to know wad has been controlled from being said and its also sad when u hear what is said

it depends on the person.....

many a times many people forget about their surroundings when they speak...

they juz wannz make themsalves the right one and the opposite party in the wrong side..

funny how they say did u think in my shoes before saying this...but the thing is have they thought in the other person shoes?

funny how ppl, seem to think they are the most unfortunate being in the world....when the other party is the unfortunate being here

its really funny when a third party is being affected by the two opposing party when the third party hasnt done anything....

how funny when the third party is the one being condemned and affected soo much that the people in the environment actl talk and gossip about them....and even feel happy about it

its sooo funny when the afffected one is releasing no tantrums but the other people are releasing tantrums and moreover they are not evn linked to the issue....

its really really funny....

how nobody is there to understand and soothe the third party first before the third party has to fulfill his/her responsibility by soothing the opposing party....

how funny people dun find peace at home but go oout to find the peace

how people dun respect the close ones and those directly related to them bt have respect on those who are far away...

how people dun respect the ones who are there for them everytime they fall, bt respect the ones who were the main reason for the fall

how funny.....

&the beauty.

7:05 PM

updating about today...

geog lecture cancelled so ended up doing ics stuff...

then sleep...

till maths lecture

where we went through the maths promo paper...

wif mr.gary chai speaking nonsense as usaul....

he is really soo mr.bean...

maths lecture...went through 2 questions of the tutorial questions and released us to do pw.....

had break......ate lunch and had civics which we were also released to do pw....

then....did abit of my bio essay and timed my OP...

went for 1/2hr of gp cos mschiew had OP invigilation and our classmates had OP rehearsal too....

then 1.5hr break...were me and sanjana were sooo bored....

i did my bio essay finish....and sanjana was bz taking those pics above....

she even filmed the noisy birds....

that was how bored we were....

the went for bio...and guess how long it lasted...0.5hr too

supposed to be 1.5hr

bt there was oni 5 of us in lesson so she say no point and left us early...

then me and sanjana chatted abit wif bio teacher and then headed home...

met liuqi, haoxiang,weiming,jing hui and jinkai on the way...

jinkai wanted come my hse to play computer...-.-!how lame cn my classmates get!

then went to meet angelia for the proposal....

yeah....and ics is really getting on my nerves.....

i becoming the idiot....

simple thng oso they do not wanna coorporate....

reasons they give is....pw and deepavali...

hello....i also have pw and i also have deepavali.....

ask them juz comment on camp overview..oso cnt...all nod their heads in sch and nvr do...

i dont understand why they cnt do it....

juz takes them 5- 10 mins and they dont do it....i have to do the most work and im not complaining....

then juz ask them to thnk of the theme of the camp also...cnt do....

wdh is wrong wif these people...do they even know my situation....do they even knnow what i m going through?

its soo irritating...i cn see the changing mood oreadi...

last time walk past they say hi...now turn face

and i have done so much for them....i have lost soo much for them....

i hate people who dont do wad they say....

then why the hell are you guys in the exco...juz get lost....wads ur problem...

how true was sanjana's words...peeple juz use you and do not appreciate you at all...

ive learnt many things from this...

nvr to trust anybody...

n really u know some people juz thnk that they look good and everyone will juz like them and stuff...but i see thier disgusting attitude and thier irresponsibility...

bt no matter wad....

i WILL finish this proposal

i m aiming within 2 weeks

and i will not crack...no matter how hard you people try....

i WILL not crack!

i'll keep that spirit burning!

&the beauty.

6:55 PM

jas and me!

oops..turn ur heads n see...hehe...me and sanjana!

the five of us...from left, liuqi, jasmine,zan, me! and sanjana

k...um...21/10/09

went for learning journey at parliament house

went there in sec sch b4...but it was more fun...maybe it was because of the difference in company...

on the way there the class was playing the number guessing game....

i kena when we reached the parliament house exactly...so i escaped the forfeit!!

hehe!

then the trip was really nice tooo....

and we got to debate in the parliament setting too!how cool was that?

we didnt do that in sec sch...

i was the minister of some council...the incharge for hdb ones...

yeah!

on the bus journey back almost the whole class was like sleeping!

tired mah...

yeah...tiredly went home...

then went online and was desperate for the gg camp proposal

because ive to do the ics camp proposal...haiz...

yeah!

&the beauty.

9:45 PM

more photos on my hot guy!!!!!!!
look at his eyes.....
his face ...argh......
if u dont find him hot than u r not a gal!!

&the beauty.

9:33 PM

dhoom 2:from left, hrithik roshan, bihapsha basu, aishwarya rai, uday chopra, abishek bachan

hrithik roshan.....!!!!!!

aishwarya rai!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hrithik roshan again....

argh he's juz the definition of hot.....

argh!!!!

current obsession: hrithik roshan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

&the beauty.

7:54 PM

i m feeling super super low now....
bcos of
1.freakin irritating ppl around me
its soo irritating with them around .i wish i could scream at them bt i cnt...
i am frends with ppl who i do not want to be frends with and i am not frends with ppl hu i want to be frends with...
how irritating is that...
i used to like coming to school to see my frends bt now i dread it bcos i have to c them everyday...its freaking irritating...
and i have frends hu dont appreciate me anymore...
frends hu act nice infront of me and hu knows wad they say behind my back...
u know something...i've never had a sincere ffrend b4...
they show no sincerity and purity in thier frendship to me and i have like dedicated a quater to half of my life to stand by them and support them...but i have had no one so far...except one person that ive found in jc
its really depressing....
sometimes i really do not want some ppls company bt i have no choice.....
and whener i write something on someone on my blog...ppl come asking me "eh...is that me u are talking abt"
and most of the time its the wrong ppl...
like why the frwaking hell are u feeling guilty when u have not done anything wrong...
this proves that u have been doing something behind my back rite...
if u have done nothing u wont feel guilty....
2.my freakin results
soo far my promo papers almost all i have failed...luckily my grades b4 promos have pulled me up to pass my overall...
and the most depressing is maths...my strongest subject and i failed that like really really badly.....
that was really depressing....
and u know..some ppl are like soo irritating when they get back thier results...
like u get ur results i oso get back....if i cn shut up abt it...u jolly well can shutup abt it too...and u dun have to gif freaking irritating emotions and reactions on it....
if u passed soo wad....big deal....at least u could offer to help those failures or if not juz shut it....
ppl here are like kinda depressed....
argh....
i know i look stupid to u...then fine i will remain stupid to u...u dont have to go around proving the point that i am stupid....
and u dun have to go around boasting that the paper was easy or u anyhow do the paper but still cn pass and all that...
i know i am stupid u dont have to behave in a way to send the message to me...
enough is enough
i m nt angry at anyone for their marks bt why cnt u juz mind ur own buisness

3.chores to be done before deepavali and no rest
so many millions of chores to be done....
esp my room cos its super messy...i still have 2 cupboards to go...then still got diwali decorations...still must put henna for ppl...muz do rangoli...arghhh....
and i have to hid all my feelings and put on a smile outside...
4.homework:tutorials.
just after promos haven even recover and homeworks are given
tutorials fter tutorials....
and of course still got OP

and on top of all this worries if i will be promoted...
i don't even want to be provisionally promoted....i'll really die out of stress....
and some teachers keep on saying about retaining jc1 or going to poly....and that teacher who said it like keep looking at me.....
that particular teacher has been looking down on me from the start.....
i really have nothing to say about that...
bt nothing is in my hands now....i juz have to hide all my sorrows all my irritation and put on a great big smile for ppl surrounding me....
i will put all of this behind me and move forward wadever it is....
deepavali is coming and i have to clear my mind in order to be happy

&the beauty.