you're a mystery yourself

Saturday, June 27, 2009

11:26 PM

hey....blogging again because i m forced too.... and thats a vanavil photo....frm left...shalini, bhavani, hafizah, me and jothi

why is everyone thnking tt it is them i was talking about in my previous post when its nt them....and the person whom i m talking about is nt thnking tt...haiz....

nvr mind...

ppl...dun feel guilty if u knw u havent done anythng wrong ppl....

yeah...k dun feel guilty...and ask me again....about this....

yeah....anw...updating....

i have successfully finished 6 freaking mindmaps in like 5 days....

clap for me peepos....yeah tts the way.....

that was my hmk...

bt...oni 1 day to go for sch to reopen and i still have hmk to do...gd job reenah...keep it up....

nt only that i have to study for 2 freaking important tests.....

n other freaking subjects like geog.....

haiz....

n ppl...dun blame me...bcos i didnt spend my hols wisely...

it was circumstances that did this to me...

1st whole wk as u knw...i was sick...n nt recovering....

2nd wk...half of it gone staying wif my granny....n staying wif her...u may say i could have done hmk....bt hey i was sincere i brought hmk over bt...u knw grannys like to talk n my stay over with her was a talking session to her...

then when i returned home....soo many family problems...i was like why m i living in such a family wif soo much of betryals....(saying about my bigger family...as in uncles aunt)

i shouldn't evn be calling them uncles and aunts since they dun deserve tt sort of respect...

yeah...

k...wadever...

its hurting to talk about it....

yeah...then i had to prepare to go holiday...that was booked long time ago...

we were in no mood to go...and my mum didnt feel good about going ....

bt we still went...

sat(13/06) 2230hrs...the coach left for tuas checkpoint....

we passed through the authorities....blah blah....

and we changed to a malaysian coach....(as i m writing this my heart is like thumping soo fast...i m soo scared...read on n u will knw why?)

yeah...the coach was going going....until it stopped on the way...for break where we could go to the toilet and go grab smthng to bite....

then the coach took off again...

n evryone went to sleep.....

at the wee houres of sun morning(2 am in the morn)....

there was a loud sound......

ppl were screaming and i woke up in shock to find my mum who was sitting beside me on the floor and my dad sitting in front was also on the floor...many ppl were also on the floor....

my mum got up slowly....n i asked her was she okay...

she was holding her eye n said it was very painful.....

i tot it was juz a blue-black frm hitting the seat infront...bt when the driver on the ligts of the bus.....i was in shock cos i saw wad many of u wouldn't want to c on ur mum....my mum's eye was bleeding.....omg....

i wanted to cry.....

the pain she was going through.....omg....

then they started evacuating ppl out of the bus....that was when i stood up n saw that the bus was in a slanted position almost going to fall on its side any time...

we had got into an accident....

i was about to faint...

i could feel my head going cold and i was pale....bt i had to hold on.....for my mum....

i had to stay on her side....

holding my mums right hand and my father holding my mums left hand we slowly walked her down the damn bus.....

walk through some muddy soil to the other side where we could sit and aid her eye....

i cnt tell u the pain n the trauma tt i went through.....

i was soo painful...

in that darkness we couldnt see wad was wrong with her eye...and i tot it was juz a small cut....

my mum was holding onto me soo tightly....i knew the pain she was going thorugh...but...i couldnt evn feel her tightness on me cos i was dumbstruck when i saw the position on the bus after i got down....

we could have sustained super serious injuries if the bus had collapsed on its side....

many ppl were hurt on the legs hands...all sratches or bruises with internal bleeding...

my dad suffered an injury on his left ankle...his vein inside had burst...but it waant very serious....

bt in the whole bus...my n bro were the ones who escaped without even a single scratch....

bt the trauma is still in me....

the police arrived and the ambulance arrived....

the shone the torch light on my mum's eye and i felt like fainting yet again to see the condition..

her eyelid had been torn....and was bleeding....

omg....i was standing...and afetr i saw that i looked for a spot to sit...and went over to sit...

bt we didnt go to the hospital....since they say...its in kl and we have to find our way to cameron highlands our selves....

how the hell are we supposed to do that?

soo we juz ask them to dress the wound.....and they didnt even put any medicine...like damn it...

i could have done that dressing mysself....

they juz put the gauze and sticking tape and cover her eyes...

bt by the time the ambulence came my mum's whole right side of her face was swollen....

i had to see through all that....oh my god!!!!!!

i shall pray that no one of u will go trough wad i went throough....its painfl raelly....

later we found out that the driver had been driving for 3 continuos days and had nt slept....

thats why he slept hwile DRIVING!!!WDH!!!!

then like 3 hrs later...at 5am another coach brought us to cameron highlands....

we reached there at 10am...bt the journey was the worst journey.....

everytime the driver braked my heart will be in my mouth...

why even nw when travelling in my dad's car...when he puts a small break my heart is in my mouth....

we reached cameron and immediately went to see the doctor there...he dressed the wound...like really...put some medications....

and gave her some painkillers and antibiotic to eat....

then we went to the hotel and the whole day we were in the hotel....

then...the next day....

my mum was soo much better....

we went sightseeing....

k it was quite good...

then...in the evening....we went to a temple...we spotted on the way up to our hotel...

to pray for a safe journey back...

argh...cn u imagine the trauma....

then the nxt day...we left cameron....at 11am....and reached singapore at 9pm ....

went to bed...

then nxt day.... mum went to the doc.....he siad its nth...gave her some medication and cream to put on.....

bt till today....there is a scar on her eyelid....and my dad's leg is healing...my mum is soo much more better....now...

this would be the most unforgettable holiday i ever went and the worst one too....

haiz....

ive taken photos bt they r wif bro...

will update it some time...

yeah...

soo tragic... if u want more details ask me k...i cnt write about it anymore...its hurting and scary...

haiz...n latelysoo many upsetting this are happening....

1) no extended school holidays ....thats really sad.....

2) the test which was actl postponed to wk 2 is still in wk 1 damn it....

3) people do not keep promises....

thats quite sad isnt it....

promised that he/she wouldnt do it...

and now he/she is soo into it....

thats quite sad....why cnt ppl keep promises and control themselves...

i mean its good for them i m saying nth of selfish motives here.....

they keep walking on the same path despite knowing that it has many holes....

and they just enjoy dropping into them...then hurting themselves and coming out...then nvr learn thier lessons and drop in another hole...

and they have evrything in life.....

haiz...guess....its in the own person's hand afterall...evn though u try to be helpful and offer help to change their path....they juz dun take the decision of holding ur helping hand and walk wif u....

its sad and hurting to see ur frends or loved ones going in the wrong way and being helpless bcos they juz dun want ur help....

haiz....

&the beauty.

7:26 PM

hey.....
holidays have like started 2 wks ago and i havent finish or evn start revision or better still my hmk.....
1st wk of hols ive been sick wif a 39.6 fever....hw graet is that....had super high fever that the doc gave me a mask to wear...haha....
yeah....was at home sleeping...eating medicine...and that was all i did....
haiz....then....sat sun spend the day wif granny....sun stayed over wif granny....mon stayed over wif granny...tues came home at night.....
wed satrted abit of hmk...bt i went to the doc again...cos oni my fever was gone...i was still having sore throat, bad coughs,and lots of phlegm......eeeeewwwww.
getting better now....
n decided to blog...
its getting boring at home and i m eager to see some ppl...
but i wish hols were longer also...bcos of some probs and some ppl...who i do not wish to see...let alone talk to...
sorry was the word they used...when the impact was done.....
the hurt has already been stitched in my heart....
wads the point of a sorry...
right now...if the person is reading this then....he or she better understand that i m telling about u...and change urselve....or if u cnt juz dont show ur face to me....
and dun even bother to ask me about this or talk about this...cos i will never give u the answer...soo forget it...
some advice for u ....pls learn how to talk in a way that does not hurt ppl
learn how to appreciate ppl
learn hw to appreciate ppl's work whether its soo sucky to u....
they have taken their bloody time for u...to do the work u asked them to....
sooo appreciate.....
u may have ur best friend to lean on their shoulder now...
u may have ur partner to shower u all the love u r getting....
bt in the end of the day....they have their own opinions and they may not really love u
or care for as u think...becos...
U DO NOT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE PPL AND THEIR TIME....
u may fight and stick back....but the feeling of hurt that u have given to them will always saty in thier heart....
i shouldnt be evn spending my freakin time on u...bt wad to do
u r connected to me in some way....
i still care and appreciate ppl...and nt like u...
haiz.......

&the beauty.

3:55 PM

heyhey....its the start of the holidays....at last....
n it came in such a good timing bcos i m easily getting irritated at almost everything...
that would be the result of lack of sleep.....hmhm....
ok..
start form last week....
atl i dont rmb much oreadi.....
ok....hmmm.monday....
last min came to know that had rehearsal for vanavil....
n i dint bring anything t change in.....
so juz danced in sch full u....
went hme around 8 or 9...i forgot...
tuesday.... we were released at 12.30...to go support badminton finals.....
veryvery fun.....we were screaming here and there.....
yeah...but we lost....but it was a veryvery close fight...
yeah....three cheers and three cheers and three cheers to jj!hiphip hooray hiphip hooray hiphip hooray!!!!!!!!
yeah....
k....reached hme at 6.30....
nxt day......full dress rehearsal for vanavil.....
we were doing nthng until 3.....
juz slacking and waiting for people.....
then the rehearsal started wif lots of confusion....we were supposed to wait for some jc ppl....
they came....with the -.- face....soo irritating!!!!!!
and i saw the another side of bhavani......super crazy ......for a small and quiet gal....
haiz...me n my crazy frends....
yep...
then we were released by haresh the incharge for ushering people.....
and we went back to lt5.....it was chaotic there......
the mc (aasief) was missing....and the another mc....(dhurga) was getting all the scoldings from mr.jega.....
mr.jega was going bonkus also.....
then the rehearsal ended at around 8.30....
n the comments frm ex-seniors who came down was really really bad...
mr.jega was like scolding us all......
yeah...then had to rush off to cousins place ...it was his birthday....
sooo rush down there straight after rehearsal.....
n saw this cute little puppy in his house....
he got it for his birthday.....
soooo cute......oni 6 wks old.....
haiz....
soo celebrated his birthday n cme hme at 11.....
did as much hmk as i could and dropped dead.....
thursday....
gt a sms saying we under performed the previous days rehearsal sooo had to go rehearsal on thurs too....
sooo after bio....went to rehearse again.....until...almost 8 and i rushed off...since the nxt day had manymany test......
fri
it was a half day...sch finished at 10.30.....
bt we had geog test tll 11.30....
me luiqi and zan were like stunned at the geog question...and handed up a paper filled with nonsense....and luiqi was like i bet u i get 2 marks.....
n the test takes up 15%....great isnt it....
argh...then immediately after that had chem test.....
energetics.....
i flunged it too.....
argh......
then went for rehearsal.......straight away...they did it like the real day one......
quite serious and we improved alot.....
the had a second round rehearsal ...it went well too...
then everyone was drop dead tired.....
and still we had to go for a dance rehearsal....
like we had to give in our fullest energy and dance or we have to repeat it again and agian....
i was there going to drp dead soo....wif my stupid cramps.....
argh...
and they were like keep on picking on me.....but did i complain...no...i didnt say a word.....
n yet they scolded us....argh...
they talk as if.... they have been dancing from like 2 or 3 years old....
they dont even know classical lah...and they are talking big ....
they talk very big like they know the rules of indian classical ance bt still they dont follow it.....and the talk about indecency....bt they them selves are indecent......
i guess i cnt get along wif people whose names start wif j......
from sec sch....haha....
yeah....
then went hme at 9.30....and the security guard was like shouting at us oreadi hahah....
went to bath and went to sleep.....
nxt day was the big day for us....
went down to school at 8.30 in the morn to find noone there!!!!
helped wif the decorations which were like falling down.....
helped to decorate somemore.....
then left at 11....brought kasturi and shamini home to tie saree....
mum tied the saree for them then...they left to go do their makeup and hair at some beauty parlour....
i stayed home and dressed up...
and hafizah...barath and kasturi was like calling me evry 10 mins....cos they wanted me go buy thumbtacks...when like there were free people in sch to buy them...at last...they bought it their ownselves and didnt even use it....-.-
then went back at 2 ....i was tthe only soul who was all dressed up there...
shalini was oso dressed up....
then helped them wif the decoration and stuff....
and help premala tie her saree....
it came out to be very nice.....yeah....
then...weny around tieing peoples hair putting on make up for them...and all that stuff.....
then duty started ...and i was like standing at the doorway.....with my back straight up....
woah i had a bad backache later on....
i had to say vanakam to everyone who is going inside the lt....
haiz....
then....duty supposed to end at 6.30 but ended up it ended at 7+
haiz....everything was delayed.....
then went back to lt2 to change and all those who said they will wait for me didnt...soo went to the toilet to find them all stripping away....
them changed into jeans and tee....
and went back to lt2...and the gals were like "reenah....why u change...i wanted to take photo wif u in ur saree!!!!!"
haiz....too late...
but truly speaking every single one of the ics crew was looking at our best and the gals were all soo pretty....
yeah....
the show went on rather smoothly....
met loads of freinds....
finale dance was superb.....
then we the show ended at around 10+
we had to go and clean up the lt....
everyone was like talking to friends and relatives...and some of us were clearing up....
then suddenly it was like oni 4-5 of us were clearing up....
and the audience had left a mess...
muruku was spilled on the floor....sweet drinks were spilled on the floor....
sooo we sweeped.....
then we had to mob...and prabhu was like "can we pour water on it and use something to clear it up?"
and i was like "huh? how?"
and then i say no we have to get a mob...
he ask some moaning guys to go get a mob...at the pace they were going...i couldnt stand it...soo i went hunting for a mob....
found it in the gals toilet...ran to the lt wif the stupid mob..in my hands...sickening siah...sooo unglam....
then...began mobbing....when sathia came and was irritating me like hell....
i was too tired to be patient wif him soo i started to fire back whatever he was saying...
but i have to tell this....prabhu is such a nice person and such a gentlemen....haiz.....
n yes....orangutan did a splendid job....i shall not say wad job or people will know who i m talking about....
yeah...
three cheers for orsngutan...i m proud of u...
found out another person who shares the same interest as me....and all through the vanavil rehearsals we were like omg ......sooo cute...omg....soo hot.....
haha...
then we were served dinner...but it didnt look appealing to me...sooo didnt eat it......
were talking to freinds and all that...saw avinash.....
didnt talk much....
yep.....then they had briefing....summary of it: thak u!
yep...gave lift to hafizah....and reached hme at 11.45pm.....
bathed...and ate my dinner at 12.30....and slept at 1.30...
haiz...
but sad thing is VANAVIL is over!!!!!!!

&the beauty.