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2012-01-31T07:25:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!
updating!
currently incanberra!
time 10.25 in the morning!
and i'm so bored! its the 2nd day of orientation and ive got no events for today!
haiz!
but anyway for the past one week i have been just going around settling school stuff, buying and stocking up my room with food and other essentials!
you know i pack until i think i have alot of stuff in my bag but i coxme here my cupboard is so empty lah!!!
haiz!!!
yup! went to do some sight seeing as well!
photos will be uplaoded in fb!
and canberra is beautiful!!!
yup!
yesterday first day of orientation and it was just soo confusing with many things to do!
and i have to keep in mind alot of things cos i have to pay hostel rent, phone bill internet bill and school fees! update many mnay things and stuff! so confusing and soo mnay things to do!
alll the best to me!
and pls contact me once in a while ok!
cos i tell u i'll be damn bored here!
yup! bye ppeps!

2012-01-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

i'm really sry if you find my blog dead.
but its i no time or i just no mood.
leaving in 2 days.
i'll blog when i'm there and when my internet is settled
bye guys

2012-01-21T01:02:00.001+08:00

I.can't.sleep! Butterflies.in.my.stomach!

2012-01-09T23:40:00.001+08:00

2012-01-03T13:31:00.002+08:00

hi guys!
k i really wnted to like reflect on 2011 and write about 2012 and all that but i dint have the mood to blog for the past few days! haha!
anws just some reflection
2011
- dehli with mum
- cousin's wedding(first wedding in the family)
-thaipusam
-A'level result
-vanavil
-lots of tuitions!
- bro's 21st
-acceptance from uni
- many mnay outings with friends/cousins and family
-harry potter and twilight movies

yup! thats about it
2011 has been like a rest year for me no school but still bz with tuition and all
hopefully 2012 will be a fruitful year for me
i sincerely hope its gonna be good and smooth for me- esp when i go aus!
haiz! everybody pray for me k- that i settle in fast and get good roommates! thanks!

and i sincerely wish from the bottom of my heart that everybody has a excellent yaer ahead!
special wishes to 09s29, my friends and family!
and to liuqi!- its the new year so start afresh(i know you are already)
just keep going k! take breaks in between but nvr give up hope k! all the best!
and to everyone else all the best! i can just feel that 2012 will be a good year ahead for eveyone! so lets enjoy and take on any challenge with a big big smile k!
love ya all lots!

okay! now what ive been doing for the past few days
sat(31/12/2011)
my last class for my singing lesson
so went there with a bouquet for my teacher and chocolates for everyone else!
then went to eat in a restuarant- super full!!!
haha!
then a short visit to my mum's aunt's place and came home
sun(01/01/2012)
woke up and pray then went to temple
its a every year thing that my whole extended family goes to the temple and serve ppl food there, (a good deed at the start of the year)
i always look forward to it bcos my whole family is there and we nvr fail to laugh, greet and enjoy ourselves!
yay!
mon(02/01/2012)
nothing special
spent the whole day at home watching tv( got free channels!haha!)
thats it!

i'm going zoo on the 7th of jan with dear aliens!
and i have a family ladies nite out on 15th
and i stll got alot of outings but ppl havent confirmed with me!
and i'm am freaking out!!!
i'm so nervous! everytime i see the date i have butterflies fluttering about in my stomach!ahhh!
yup1 thats it ! bye!

2011-12-30T18:50:00.001+08:00

i really wanted to blog but i no mood suddenly
partly bcos of my dearest mum bcos she dont let me go swimming!
tell me ppl what the hell is wrong in going swimming!
I.R.R.I.T.A.T.I.N.G!

2011-12-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so lonely at this moment.

2011-12-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

k blogging blogging!
i shall start frm last fri
i went universal studios!
fun nice but the rain spoilt the fun!
but we still had fun in the rain!
came home bath and went out agian for dinner with 09s29..great to meet them!
then sat
went out with my group of rubbish friends! raining agian so we just go catch a movie at bugis- mission impossible! it was great! like really so interesting!
came home and did one fruit cake
then sunday-christmas!
woke up early do another fruit cake! then went to my paternal aunt's house for christmas celebration!i drank wine! haha! but it was really bitter!
came home and do another fruit cake then go my maternal aunt's house for family gathering cum christmas celebration!- i was eating the whole day!
came home really late!
oh why i do so many cake
1 for my family
1 for my aunt cos she ask
1 for the next day chalet!
monday went for thesupposed ics chalet/bbq
you know how many turned up? 3
great rite?
we met at like 9.30am
reach pasir ris at like 11am
then we go catch a tamil movie which was a big big big flop!
gosh! it was really stupid!
then went to the chalet ate icecream watch another movie in the chalet bbq ate talked.
then sathia's army friends started coming so me and hafizah lft!
reached home at like 9.15pm
quite tired!
and today morning again i'm rotting!
hmph! rot rot rot!
nothing else to do!

2011-12-22T19:11:00.003+08:00

seriously! fb is getting more and more boring each day! gosh!
k last min meet up with liuqi!
glad she called me out! cos i'm rotting at home like everyday!
geh! ppl pls follow her example and if you are bored too i can accompany you in being bored too!
yup1
bye!

2011-12-20T11:05:00.002+08:00

I.AM.SO.BORED!
gah! i'm faced with endless days of emptiness! omg!
can someone be sooo bored!
i just sit at home and stare at the walls! ahhh!!!1 so so so boring!
schedule for this week:
21st dec- shopping with whole family for my trip
23rd dec- uss with cousin and bro andclass outing at night
24th dec- to the zoo with sec sch friends
25th dec- christmas party at aunt's house
26th dec- ics outing!

i super cant wait for class dinner, zoo and the ics outing:)
k i'm so bored i dunno what to blog also!

2011-12-17T20:56:00.002+08:00

when you expect something to happen it doesnt,
but when you dont expect it to happen it happens:)

2011-12-15T19:16:00.002+08:00

blogging blogging! firstly apologies for my long absence and another apology for my super emo post...i just had to write it.
yup! k updates!
last last friday (02/12)i went to see breaking dawn with hafizah.i tot the movie was really nice!! i liked the action and emotions in the movie! but i didnt know if hafizah understood the movie cos she nvr follow the seies and stuff so i had to summarise 4 books in 5 mins b4 the movie for her.haha! but i enjoyed it!

k then nothing till last monday(05/12), i went swimming with liuqi! i think we talk more then we swim haha! and the swimming pool damn cold!!!
haha! we talked quite alot! and i had a wonderful time! yay1 thanks liuqi!

then i thurs(08/12) i had prayers in temple! came back quite late and tired!

sat my normal singing lessons.
nothing
nothing
nothing

monday(12/12)
outing with my sec sch close freinds- vathsala and hafizah
we went o the museum then walked quite long in orchard to find restuarant to eat! haha! and we settled for jack's place in the heren
and whoa we really talk alot cos its been ages since we met up and we used to be super close in lower sec! we talked about our past memories, whatever we missed with each other and our present lives as well!! i so miss them! and it was great to meet up!
hafizah and vathsala were my first friends in sec sch!
yup!

tuesday(13/12)
zan's birthday!
happy birthday!!!
haha!
i had tuition!

wednesday(14/12)
tuition in the morning
then met up with vathsala to go for swimming at 4.
and thats when it started to pour and there was lightning and all that!
haiz! so we wait outside jw swimming complex and talk alot for 2 hrs! at 6 then they open so we went in and swam!
swam for 1hr plus. and then lazy river which we talked and talked and talked! coming home also talk and talk and talk!
haha! omg! i miss her soo much!
haha!and i'm so glad i met up with her!

thursday(15/12)
supposed to go universal studios but my cousin cancelled:(
so going nxt week like that!
but instead i went imm with mum and bro! shopped abit and came back!
then all of them ditch me to go to the gym! so i'm home alone! and super bored!

i'm so bored these days! i think bcos i was like super bz with tuitions for the past months and suddenly all stop so like no tuitions suddely i have to sit at home and do nothing! haiz!

yup! thats it tmr i got tuition and sat too! sat will mark the official last tuition then after that i really nothing to do!
haiz!

okay plans i have so far

next week(i dunno when)- universal studios
24th- zoo with my sec sch friends
25th- christmas celebration with my family
26th- whole day gathering with ics ppl

thats! other dyas i'm free!
k and i'll blog when i have something to blog nxt!
I AM SO B.O.R.E.D!

2011-12-09T12:07:00.002+08:00

you cant always be right rite?
but you nvr listen to me! nvr! is it becos i'm the youngest so anything i say wont make sense or is it becos i'm a gal
you claim your anger is so much in control ever since you went delhi last year bcos of the spiritual experince there- hear it form me now, your anger has actl double folded you get so angry at such trivial things!
i nvr was rude to you but you think i'm rude!
i nvr had a reason to lie to you so i dont but you think i lie!
i nvr had a boyfriend or even close to choosing a boyfriend but you think i have a boyfriend and i'm alwyas going out with my boyfriend
i nvr did anything you thought of me b ut you still suspected me!
i try not to really think of those piercing words you say to me but i cant help it! they just go straight to my heart and prick it so hard!
i cant help that!~ but you can help to lessen those words! but you dont even try!
each time i tell myself dont cry for all this i cant help those few tears that escape my eyes!
its really not funny to suspect time and time again when i really dont do anything!
the sad truth is that i really dont have anybody to rely on or fall back on when i'm hurt!
you nvr agree its your fault cos you are always thinking you are right!
ignore me all you want! say no to all the help i want to give!
in the end i'm the one whose gonna help you out and take care of you cos believe it anot he is not going to care for you!
but you still give him everything! and keep saying he's such a poor thing
he doesnt do something you ask you keep quiet for 5 mins in which time i'll go and do it for him and then you'll start talking as cheerfully as b4.
but if i dont do it it becomes a big fuss- and you are screaming at me and ignoring me for 2 to 3 days! and you talk about treating children fairly! ha!
if you dont want to spend for mr say it! you dont have to buy it and then keep saying you bought things for me in your money!
you dont even appreciate that i exist and here iam worrying about you for nxt year cos i wont be here to hel[ you and you beloved son will definetly not help you!
i knew you were always like that suspecting me ignoring me and just ignoring my presensse but i nvr tot he would turn against me!
i always thought he supported mme and would nvr suspect me but i nvr knew he was the silent killer who says few words and those few words just kill you.
how could you even say such a thing!
i've become soo cheap for you!
how could you say i go behind boys!
and thats not even the worst thing you say! i dun want to mention it here! but when you said it theres no taking back!
how could you even say that!
whats there in hurting me so much and not trusting me!
you trust the wrong person and not me!
i always tellmyeslf tha i dont nned to prove myself to you but i cant !its in my nature to clear eveything inmy name!
but the thing is ive tried so many bloody times to no avail! you are so stubborn to trust your stupid misconception and not me and the truth!
now i even think u are relieved you are getting rid of me even though its temporary!
but mark my words you will be ashames of yourself one day! i assure you that!

2011-11-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

hey guys! blogging blogging!
my tuitions are coming to an end
cos all go hols then i just stop haha!
and i'm telling them i'm flying off 1st week itself! haha! but i'm not 3rd week then i go!
k anw updates!
i dont rmb most of the things actl!
this week i've been just doing winter clothing shopping like everyday i go shopping! ahha! tiring! but i spend more time with mum
and cousin
bro has returned from aus
yup...nothing new this week!

oh and i dreamt about liuqi, the dream didnt make sense a all lah but in the dream
liuqi looks like some super model super pretty with long beautiful wavy hair! haha!!
i really couldnt rmb the drream or what it meant but i woke up smiling and missing liuqi at the same time! haha!
to liuqi: i'm missing you lots! and all the best for your exams! jia you k! dont stress too which i know you wont but also dont ggive up k ...keep going!

k in my singing class my other friend also left! so i'm all alone now!
but anw i'm quite independent and its not like i dont have a good and kind teacher so i wont stop! i'm gonna continue my passion and continue singing till i fly and by some miracle my teacher's sis is also in canberra ! haha! miracle right! so i'll continue there as well!:D

k and i've got this list of things i want to do b4 i fly!
here's the list
1. universal studios( i'm gonna go with cousins soon! yay!)
2. outing with 09s29
3. outing with liuqi
4. outing with my rubbish gang(haha!- hafizah, huiyi and fathimah)
5. outing with my lovely alienz!
6. outing with my sec sch tamil class and hopefully the teacher as well!
actl outing with the various groups of ppl! haha!
and lastly
7. get drenched in the heavy downpour!( i dont know why but i'm having this thought for quite some time! haha! i really want get wet in the rain!)

yup! and i think the list will increase as the days go by!
oh and of course! i want go swimming!

i'm getting more nervous and i keep asking myself what i will do there in different situations! so scary! hopefully i get nice and good roommates!!!!

k thats it guys!
oh i forgot say!
aishwarya rai(my favourite actress) has given birth!!! to a baby girl! and the good news is it looks like the mum!!! with the mums eyes!!!!
and for those who dont know aishwarya rai has one of the most beautiful eyes-its blue green
and she was the miss world in 1994 and also she is named as one of the most beautiful women in the world! so its great that the baby gal looks like her!

2011-11-12T21:05:00.002+08:00

I knew the missing factor would begin way before the time I actl have to fly. That's expected! But I expected another thing to happen in the later part. I really expected it but what I did not expect is for it to start like now itself. Who will you trust when you don't trust your own daughter.

2011-11-08T19:22:00.004+08:00

time to update! sorry for being mia for a while!!!
k anyways too much i shall just update from diwali!
but befor that!!!! ra.one was just fantastic!!!!

i super love the songs and the movie! shahrukh khan is soooo hot!!! like gosh!!! soooo hot! you'll should see the songs!!!! i'll change my song list to the 2 hit songs from the movie k! do take a look! and akon sang it!!! its really nice!

yup! k diwali!

this is the rangoli i did!
four and a half hours!
gosh!
so tiring! but the result was fantastic! i was scared the purple combi wont be nice but i turned out great!
diwali photos in fb!
diwali both paternal aunts came down in the morning
afternoon uncle and cousin and cousin sis-in-law came down! it was thier first diwali!
yup! then rest for like 1 hr then went to my grand uncle house then went to maternal aunts house!
overall happy diwali but we didnt celebrate full scale cos bro not here!

yup!
then...er... i dun rmb anything everntful until last week!
monday i went to put henna on my hand ! haha! like one week later after diwali! haha! cos i put for everyone no one put for me! haha!
then thurs i went to meet zan!
after soooo many months we finally meet!
haha! talked quite alot! but i couldnt talk much cos it was freaking cold in the mac and the cold storage! haha!
but yup! it was great to meet up with her!

then rushed home cos mum had invited her colleagues down for dinner!
so helped out!
tiring day!
then sunday we invited ppl down to the house!
my friends came down and i tell you it was one of the best diwalis for me! i nvr enjoyed it so much b4! i loved it! and i'm so glad they came down! it will definetly be like a permanent memory for me and when i'm there nxt year i definetly rmb this times when i miss you'll! thank you for making it memorable!
photos in fb!

k then thats it! ive started tuition again!
fustrating!!! but i have dropped some! i'm only taking upper pri now, easier for me also! and i have found freinds to take over me to! thanks to uthesh and his friend shalini! yays!

yup! thats everything! i promise i'll update frequently!!!

2011-10-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

Yo ppl! I'm blogging from my iPod! Yay! Anyways I'm really bz with diwali preparations! So bz! And it's more this time cos I'm not studying so I'm expected to help without even being asked! Yup! Ok some updates. I've finished 3 out of 8 tuitions their exam finish le. So I've stopped! But they ask me continue till dec and I told them I need rest so I'm taking 2 weeks off! Haha! But I still need prepare! I've to do my passport then visa and so many things! Hay tiring u know! And I still have 4 more kids for tuition! Haiya! But some like really cannot help already and I won't continue even if they ask all this kind if kids they not interested then I can't teach! K another thing my bro went to aus already for 2 months! But I've to say when I went to the airport to send off I suddenly felt nervous! It's gonna be me soon! Oh no! And it's not 2 months only like that it's 3 years! So scary! Oh no! And it's coming so fast! K another update I've got 2 21st birthday to attend! So tiring! Gah! K bye guys!

2011-10-09T19:57:00.003+08:00

k i'm blogging!
i'm actl very tired! but i'll still blog! okay firstly a big big thank you to all those who wished me on my birthday! thanks to liuqi, kailin and jinghui for the diary/planner! i love it i really do! thanks to the 4/3 gang- naazira, adelina, huiyi and of course hafizah for the surprise and the diary! i love it too!
the photos of the surprise

yay! i got a headphone mic set from my bro for me to communicate when i'm there!
and ya when all of you show me so much of love esp my friends its gonna be difficult when i am going! oh no! but i'll cherish all the memories!

okay let me start from 26 sept
went tuition in the morning then headed to meet liuqi for lunch!
it was great meeting her!
and we talked about almost everything! haha
thanks for the company liuqi! i really needed it in the midst of all my tiring tuitions!

then headed little india with mum to collect my half sari's i stitched for my performances.

then rush back for tuition

nxt day 27th sept
tuition, another tuition, another tuition
then went jp to meet up with 4/3 gang! it has been like 3 years since we met up!
and they surprised me! haha! i was surprised!
we relived our lame and happy moments during our sec4 year!
haha!

28th sept
it went by like another normal day!, i spent most of the day in the temple
and i have to say thanks to ppl who wished!-some of them i really didnt expect-but thanks for remembering my birthday! and love each and every one of you!

29th sept
i felt unwell so i happily cancelled tuitions!-dun judge me too quickly k! i needed that break! i was really going into pieces!

30th sept tuition. another tuition and thats it!

1st oct
half thr gone for rehersal for my singing perfromance, i came back home super tired!

2nd oct
first day perfoemance! it went well
here's the photo

3rd october
2nd day performance and it was at the temple which i used to learn singing from
its at katong so after i left singing there i havent went back at all- 5 years! so going there was really great all the great memories came flooding in
here's the photos

k then all the other days are just tuition tuition tuion
up till yesterday

08/10/11
tuition another tuition,rush to singing class then shopping for deepavali
and going to those crowded places
1.very hot
2.uncomfortable
3. but it definetly brought on the deepavali mood! yay!
yup! shopped shopped shopped till quite late

today
tuition then came home cleared my cupboards-only clothes one i still have many to go
and i did something! i cut my hair!!!
my lovely beautiful hair is gone!
its so short !!1
the guy like purposely cut until so short! its shoulder length now!:(
so sad you know! he just cut my ponytail off!
i'm praying my hair will faster grow!!!
yup! k i damn tired!
bye guys! and i'll update nxt weekend!

2011-10-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

I know I have to blog! But I'm super bz! It's exam period! Pardon me guys! I'll blog soon maybe tmr or Monday! With photos! I promise! Love ya!

2011-09-23T21:59:00.003+08:00

k updating!
had another bz week again! and also quite a number of tuition cancellations actl only 2 lah but still ive to make them up nxt week which is bad! haiz!
k firstly its like the oral week for all my kids! i'm glad its over cos i just dont like teaching oral! its sort of a natural thing! how to teach instinct rite?
haiz! anyways, okay news of the week!
my house has been repainted its blue now!
seemed abit odd at first but i guess i'm used to it!
my bros room his cabinet is blue so now that the walls a blue as well its like some underwater world! haha! its just the absence of fishes! haha!
my room with the baby purple cabinet and the light blue wall it looks like some candy shop! haha! really! i think the colours are too sweet!
i think my parents room are the best but my mum doesnt agree!
gah! our tastes nvr match!
haha!
deepavali is coming!!! excited!!!!
yay!

my tuition kids are improving!!! its such great news i tell you! with their exams like 2 to 3 weeks its kinda depressing if they are not scoring!
but its okay they are improving!
phew!

i've got my accomadation!!!
its a 5 room flat kinda accomadation! 1 rm all to myself! but the rooms are kinda small! and they send me this 26 page long rules and regulations! i jjust read them ! and they actl say we have to keep our rooms clean at all time or we will be fined! haha! but i will keep my room clean except for when maybe i'm in a rush!
haha!
okay! yup!
i've quite a heavy day tmr!
ive got tuition from 9 to 10.30
then11-1 another tuituin! then ive to rush off to my singing classes!
haiz!
yup!
k nxt week schedule
monday-26/09/2011
tuition 1(9-10.30)
tuition 2(7.30-9.00)

tuesday-27/09/2011 -sanjana's birthday
tuition 3(9-10.30)
tuition4(3-4)
tuition5(4.00-6.00)

dinner with 4/3 girls at 7

wednesday-28/09/2011
early mrning prayers in temple(5am!)
then i think we'll reach home at around 11am
then 4.30 or 5pm have to go back for another prayer

thursday -29/09/2011 - kothai's birthday
tuition1(9-10.30)
tutition6(2.30-4.30)

friday -30/09/2011 - aunt's birthady
tuition 5(4.30-6.30)
tuition 7(7.30-9.00)

saturday -01/10/2011 -nava's birtdhay
tuition7(9.00-10.30)
tuition8(11-1)
singing class(3-4)

sunday -02/10/2011
ive got performance!!!!

yeah! thats it!
till we meet again!
bye peeps

2011-09-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

my blog so boring so i'm just adding a splash of colour!
hehe!

2011-09-18T21:02:00.002+08:00

blogging!
i dun blog often now becos i very bz!!!
like chufang said i seriously have no life! everyday tuition tuition tuition! gah!
k some updates!
in between my tuitions i took time to meet up with aliens!
yay! it was so pleasant/wonderful/great/fantastic to be with them!
cos they are the few ppl who know me and i can be me myself with them!
yay! love you gals!
then shopping with mum (i bought alot of clothes!)
stockiing up for nxt year!
but i still need to get more clothes!
gah! all those winter clothes lah all that!
iam getting bzier with tuition cos its exam fever!
everybody's having oral tmr!
hopefully they do well!
and bcos of oral all the mum was like can we have extra tuition and they asking me to squeeze my schedule and worse ask me come sun!
gah!
i say no and i show them my diary to show how bz i am and that sunday is my only day that i get to rest!
and they keep quiet after that!
and its only oral!!! ive nvr had trouble with oral!
gah!
ive another hectic week nxt week and the nxt week after that and the nxt week after that(and it continues)
and deepavali is coming as well so i have to clean up my room(nightmare!)
tmr and tuesday we are having painters to piant our whole house! its gonna be blue!
wonder how it'll turn out!
hopefully nice! the person say blue is a cooling colour!
anw k thats it i going offline!
nxt week is my dad's birthday! and i havent gooten him a gift!
i know ! i am great!
was supposed to go orchrad shopping with my cousin but she ditched me!!! k i understand its bcos she tired got work !
so i have to go get a gift nxt week!
k nxt week's schedule
monday
(0900-1030) tuition kid 1
(1930-2100) tuition kid 2
tuesday-shalini's birthday
(0900-1030) tuition kid3
(1630-1830) tuition kid 4
wednesday
(0930-1030) tuition kid 5
(1630-1830) tuitiion kid6
(1900-2030) tuition kid 1
thursday
(0900-1030)tution kid 1
(1430-1630)tuition kid 7
friday-dad's birthady
(1630-1830) tuition kid4
(1930-2100) tution kid8
saturday
(0900-1030) tuition kid 8
(1100-1300) tuition kid 6
(1500-1600) singing lessons at mountbatten!
sunday-slacking day!

so if you want call me out or something thena see my schedule then ask me k! then i can come in my free time! i am so sick of tuition!
you know i think i'm abit reaching my limit already cos like i feel super tired!
i was tellingmy mum how would it be if i cancel one whole week of tuition!
and my mum was like all the mum's will come to our house and pull you to theri house or they'll just bring their child down and i would have no choice but to teach!
gah!
k but i'll be patient!
k thats it!
bye guys!

2011-09-06T22:44:00.001+08:00

hey people! i decided to blog! i had lots to blog but i kind of suddenly dont have anything to blog about! er.... k i rmbered one thing! i hate it when ppl uses my lines! like something that i always say! okay if you use my lines yes it would remind the other person of me but i really dont know if the person will be reminded of me! but still its like stealing my place in the society and my place in that person life! whatever relationship i have with them! so please dont steal my line again! k nxt er.... i'm quite preoccupied by my tutitions now! and you must hear this i'm even teaching the parents so that they can coach thier child when they are teaching them! haha! like i'm some professional! yup! oh and for one whole week i'm having nightmares! and its reallly scary! i wanted to tell mum but i didnt give her details becos its really scary!!! i cant sleep well bcos of them! its not particularly on someone but i dream about gruesome things like really gruesome things! i used to discuss my dreams with a person however stupid they were but at the moment the person is mia-ing me so i cant discuss my dreams! my dreams are really scary ok! you have no idea how scary it is! its really not for the faint hearted so i am not stating it here! k....er....what nxt? i fell ill on fri high fever suddenly and i walked all by myself to the doctor feeling super weak and answering all the doctors question with my nose voice cos my throat was super painful! and i couldnt sing bcos of that! and we are like practicising for our show now! gah! er.... deepavali is coming! and i'm super excited! cos its after super long that there are no exams during deepavali! like since psle! yup! k bye peeps!

2011-08-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!
i dont know what to blog but still i'll update
ive to keep my blog alive amid my bz life
i nvr expected myself to be this bz!
gosh!
k um....k i dropped a tuition
cos the student just refused to do his homework, waste time with his school homework, and expect me to spoonfeed him with answers!
gah! and many more other contributing factors so i just dropped it and i instantly feel better! i dont have to stress myself!

k!i really dont know what to blog! hmm okay in about 45mins its my mums birthday and i havent wrapped her present!
yes i know i'm fantastically fabulous
but i just lazy or bz lah!
haiz!
and sometimes i feel i have the cutest parents in the world!!
haha! i cant state why here but yeah they are so cute!
haha!
k just know i was browsing the fb home page cos i really dont do anything else except read the home page in fb
and i came across this particular comment/post whatever you call it of a person
i havent really talked to that person in a few months but after reading that post which was quite funny i suddenly miss the person and all the lame and funny remarks and comments that person used to tell me or share with me!

haha!
yup!

oh and i have to ask this
do i look like the clubbing sort?
cos recently one of my friends told me that which made me abit disturbed actl!
yeah pls feel free to answer that question!
i dunno i really feel disturbed about it! haiz
yeah thats about it

i think i have deceided to wrapped mum's present now
so i am going too! bye!

2011-07-31T21:30:00.002+08:00

updating, updating!
from tuesday 26th
hmm! full of tuition and just really tired!
my last tuition - the student that i scolded just 2 weeks ago is back to square one!
so i gave him punishment !
i felt bad but really that guy is super lazy!!1 and pri2 only!
i rmb my time from pri1 to pri 3 when studying and exams were like a breeze to me!!! and i'm sure i was to many ppl!!! after that i worked hard- not really worked hard lah just put in more effort and i still could pull through pri sch with ease!
and i wasnt a drop lazy in pri sch!
i sincerely do not undertsnd why he is so lazy!
i am really gving him many exercises, teaching him from the basic things but he doesnt wnat to put in the effort!
whats the point of tuition teacher putting in effort and student not even trying!
gah!!!!
and i'm giving away my time lorh!!!i teach more then 1h30 mins some more!
walaoh!
gah!!!!!

k then wed was the test!
i was feeling absolutely at ease not a tinge nervous,
but when i went there it was super crowded and all the parents were there to support thier child!
my father just dropped me and went off to work
but i'm not saying that my fatehr should have come till the exam room with me but i think the others were exagerrating!
like my god is just a test!!!!
goodness!
and there were freaking serious about it!
the test was ok! got section 1-3
section 1 was easy. section 2 ok and section 3 was the freaking difficult one!
yeah but okay!
evening went to tuition and was having a bad headache!
and i was like hitting my head and i had a pained expression!
my student taught it was becos of her and she gave me perfect work! i didnt mark a single wrong!
it was really funny but i was really having this horrible headache!
hhaha!

thurs morning tuition
monday he didnt do hmk and i scolded him
thurs day i go hmk not done again!
i had no choice but to tell the mum and the mum was abit violent!
she started whacking the poor kid!
and she tell me you beat him!
but really how many times she tell me to beat him also i wouldnt do that!
i will nvr beat my student-i'm not so violent!
then went jurong point and met up with hafizah- and i spotted this book harry potter and its history!!!
so nice but it was 30 dollars! and i'm supposed to be saving up now so i couldnt buy it!-disappointed!!!!
bought some presents and got back home!
fri another bz day with tuitions!
went through it all, received a last min call that i had to attend this tribute thing of my singing class teachers father the nxt which was at mountbatten!(in case you guys didnt know mount batten is in the circle line-so i had to change 3 trains!!!!)
and another bad news my singing lessons from now on is there!!!1
just imagine i have to travel there every thurs and it takes 1 hr!!!!
my goodness!!!!
sat was the super bz day!!!
got up in the morning went to temple where i saw sathia but couldnt talk to him
then came home had lunch and went for tuition(1-3) after tuition i rushed to mountbatten to attend the tribute(4.30-7.30)
after the tribute rush to imm to meet liuqi,kailin,irene and wei ming for a super small scaled celebration for liuqi's 19th(8.30 till 9 something)
i reached home aroung 10.30
yup! and i just collapsed!
hiaz!
it was really tiring!
sunday not much! just sit and slack at home!
and yesterday i was thinking about how i am gonna stay in aus and really its gonna be scary and lonely!!!
oh no!!!!
i'm breaking the news to my friends slowly and when they say we must meet b4 you fly i feel so happy!!! cos it means i am somebody rite and they will miss me!!! yay!
thanks you lovely peeps!
and lastly but most certainly
this msg is directly to me my best friend
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LIUQI!!!
LOVE YOU LOTS AND KEEP COOL AND SMILE ALWAYS!!!
yay!
k byes!

confused:(

2011-07-25T11:16:00.003+08:00

it feels odd not studying anything for a exam.
i have an test to sit on wednesday but have no materials to study for it-its quite a genearl knowledge thing but still feels weird!
haha!
k monday is sort of my relaxing day! i have tuition only in the evening!

if you ask me how am i feeling right now- i feel vacant!
i dunno!
its tired/sad/fulfilled and satisfied/curiosity and i dont know what else!
bcos of the many events that happened over the weekends or maybe not really weekends-from friday!
how would it feel if 2 ppl who dont really know each other-they know each other through you actually talked to each other
and one of them comes to me and says he had talked to the other person and refuses to tell me what they talked about!
i know it shouldnt concern me but hello- 2 sort of shy people as far as i have known them- talk to each other!!!! esp the one who told me they talked!
i feel awkward k! esp when the other party doesnt really talk to me often now- or should i say not anymore

as i said i feel awkward!
but actl i feel sort of immune to it now!
i dont feel as nervous and hear-beating-fast feeling now!
people say distance makes (or brings might be a better word here) people together - and in fact yes i did get distracted and kept thinking of it and started to miss them and stuff but
i shall add another quote to that-distance brings people closer but continued distance brings people further away from each other
i am saying this cos i do not feel anymore of the feelings i mentioned above
i know there will be a day where i would have to bang into that person and i dont know waht will happen then but as for now i really cant feel anything for it!

not to mention i became immune bcos of the kind-of-rude-manner-to-me way that person behaved to me! and the things that person said made me reflect
at first it was disturbing to see that person write those kind of things
i felt super bad that i have played a role in hurting them and making them feel lost
(them here just refers to one person!)
but i guess that person has done the same share of things or even worse hurt me with an intent of hurting whereas i really did not intend to hurt- i really didnt and i have even said sorry for something i didnt do!
so i dont feel as bad now!
i'm going on with my life!
and another thing i really wanted you to be the first one to know about my future(as in my path in the academic world) becos i kinda trusted you alot and told quite a number of things but i guess since you have just vanished just like that you couldnt be the one to know first.
i dont know if the news has spread to your ears yet but i wont tell till you ask
about anything not only that
i kinda feel foolish to have shared alot of information with you now
i should have followed people's advices but still theres no turning back and i will just face whatever comes in the future head on!
and thanks for teaching me a lesson!
really thanks!
and another thing there was a period of time i really disliked the opposite gender, you came and changed my opinion on them but eversince you vanished just like that i am beginning to feel the same!
seriously cant i trust anyone?

- now to my blog readers if you guys read this and didnt understand what the hell i just blabbered i'm really sorry i just had to pour my feelings!
and its only directed to one person so yeah sorry if you felt that wasted like 5-10 mins of your life making you read my post!
yep!
bye peeps

2011-07-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

sometimes my tuition kids are really cute!really i cant help smiling at them
but sometimes they make so much of silly mistakes i cant help but give them the cold look
but i'm glad i have this scary cold look cos i hate scolding them
and i cant scold so i'll just go into the silence mode then they naturally do better! haha!
and it is really pleasing and satisfying to hear it when parents tell me there's improvement in their sch work and all! it really makes my day! yays!!!
that aside every friday i can feel my energy level hitting the red and lowwest bar!!!
i get really tired bcos of the whole weeks tuition!!!
haiz! but i still have to go on cos sat also got 2 tuition!!!
haiz!!!
yup! tired!
but i love all 6 of my students!!!
its satisfying to teach really! haha!
k bye!
my life is just full of tuition nowadays! haha!
bye for mow and i'll keep the post coming in!

2011-07-14T19:16:00.003+08:00

i'm a little disappointed cos harry potter was not up to expectation
i wont say it was not nice but it was quite different from the book!
but still i'm gonna watch a 2nd time so lets see how i feel after digesting a second time.
hmm...i'm free today and its my rest day
only till my singing class teacher comes back then thurs evening will be taken up with singing class and there goes my rest time...
i'm tired not because of teaching many students but bcos of the travelling i'm doing everyday! worst still 10 dollars cn finish in 1 week!!! for transport!!!
haiz!!!
i'm tired!
yesterday i cleared my cupboards!!!
i finally cleared my notes and stuff! it was really hard pain to throw my really nicely done notes .that was my hardwork!
and i realised i did quite many geog essays!
nd many many maths practices!
yup i cleared everything except bio notes!
and i did something yesterday which my mum will definetly detest and i am feeling a little bit guilty about it!
i bought harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1 cd!
oh no! but i feel great i bought it!!!
haha!
yup! now instead of my notes my display cupboard has like my twilight books and harry potter books!
haha!
k gtg! bye!

2011-07-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

i am getting bzier and bzier each day!!!
today i had like 3 tuitions!
9-10.30 i had a pri 1 tuition,
then went to meet irene to accompany her to aug,
after which i rushed back to do household chores and then rush to tuition at 4.30! on the way there i met divya.b had a short chat then rush tuition! and when i was rushing i saw junior saw talk and walk then went tuition!
6.45 fifnish tuition and when i was leaving-walking home i met two tutition kids and their mum talk to them then come home
7.30 got tuition again! in which i blasted at the child cos he was really showing 0 improvemnt and expect me to spoonfeed him with ans!
homework not done and also all wrong!
i really cant stand it so i just blast!
he almost cry! but good!
he has to know it!!!
heh!
tmr got 2 tuition!
and 2 more days to harry potter!!!! ysy!

2011-07-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

I AM SO EXCITED!!!! I CANT WAIT!!!! 3 MORE DAYS!!!

2011-07-05T10:44:00.002+08:00

I.AM.SO.SICK!
argh! i feel horrible!
migraine, all the fever symptoms(sore throat, running nose, fevver) and cramps!
nice combination rite?
i feel like dying! really!
i had to cancel my tutitions bcos of this!
i cant even speak!!!!
argh!
i feel terribly terribly ill!
argh!
and im sick after a very long time!
gah!

2011-06-29T10:42:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!!!
i dont know what to blog about suddenly! haha!
but k i wanted to say somethng that
um i wish that particular person would stop making feel bad!!1
like pls!!!
i am really feeling bad!
you are just making me feel even more bad and sad!
so pls dont cos after a very long time i am feeling good and happy!
its as if you are tracking me and watching my mood day by day! when i'm low you just keep quiet and when my mood lifts you say something to make me feel bad again!
pls!
i m not in a good situation now so pls be a lttle more understanding ! thanks!

2011-06-28T17:00:00.002+08:00

ive got alot of things to blog about!!!
1. today is one of the most happiest days in my life!!!!
i had tears of joy once i read the email!!!
i got accepted at last!!!! like really accepted!!1 you know how wonderful the word 'pleased' seems!!!! i love that word man!!!

2. immediately after reading the mail i msg my dad, mum and bro!
and my bro send me congrats, and there was no reply from my parents!
and since i was like bursting from happiness i called my mum 3-4 times and she didnt pick up even once!!!!
then she called back 1 hr later to ask me whats the matter!!! my happy mood just fly away!
then my dad call me nxt and ask me why i call him!
wah!!!no comments man! i feel so happy that i got accepted and then when i share the news to my family the reaction is like -.-!
sadness!!!

3. i'm starting the pri 4 tuition tmr! i'm kinda excited cos pri 4 abit more tougher maths stuff! and can think one so i like!
pri 1 and pri 2 like the basics of the basics!so abit boring!
yay!

4.the gals outing that i have proposed in fb to the indian gals is like so wasted cos no one except the usual 7 enthu ones reply!
and reply also they nvr state what restaurant they want to go!
i will just decide for them but later sure they come and complian!!!
argh!!!

5. finally going out wit liuqi this thurs!yay!

6. bye! gtg for tuition! hehe! bye!

2011-06-28T16:56:00.002+08:00

my dearest cousin sister's 22nd birhday-26th june 2011!
@spices cafe

yay! happy 22nd to my cousin!

2011-06-28T12:27:00.010+08:00

As promised the photos!

2011-06-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

just when i have a taken a decision something must happen the next day itself to shake that decision!
then something else will happen on the same night which will make me angry and change my decision again!
i'm not flicker minded but i just cant help myself in this context!!!
its irritating!
and another thing i dont like guys! wanted to post it on my bro's wall but i decided not too!
cos i dont dislike my bro its the y chromosome that i dislike!
irritating! seriously !
haiz!
friday i'm going out with my lovely sec sch friends! cnt wait!!!
k byes!

2011-06-21T22:28:00.002+08:00

hi peeps
i know i'm supposed to upload my bro's 21st birthday celeb photos but i lazy! hehe!
and i'm in a different sort of reflective mood! so i'll upload later or maybe the next time
my post is gonna be a little reflective!
ive got three main things to talk about!
but b4 that i would like to pay my respects to my singing teacher's father who passed away peacefully yesterday.
may his soul rest in peace

k thats over and now my first thing tthat i would like to clarify
1. Why i hate smokers and people who drink?
at least 2 ppl asked me this already and my answer to them was "i just dont like them"
but i gave it a thought and here is why i dun like them
firstly its bcos ive had bad experience with ppl who get drunk.
in my sec sch days, when i'm travelling in buses and ive heard about many abuse cases regarding ppl who drink against woman! and mind you i'm sort of a feminist!
i hate ppl abusing females!
thats one and i dun like them bcos they do it bcos they think of themselves only- just bcos its cool, just bcos they are in emotional pain or physical pain they smoke or drink. they dont even think about the others in the society- the amount of discomfort or how hurt your family members would be if they find out or even see you smoking or drinking!
i think its really irresponsible! and i would say foolish!
its not cool when you are killing yourself slowly this way- you dont even have the rights to take a life that was given to you by your parents!
but yet you are and also hurting your parents or your loved ones by doing it!
so therefore in conclusion i hate them mainly bcos they are selfish!

2. my mum asked me why i'm so secretive.
k i shall explain why she asked me that
my parents are forever wanting to use my computer to search things and also sometimes they come and stand behind me when i'm in facebook or something
and I.HATE.IT.TO.THE.CORE!
so i will just navigate away or scroll abot so they cant read anything, so my mum ask me why i so secretive when i close the facebook page suddenly and i didnt answer her that day!
but yeah this is the answer to why i'm so secretive
oh and i forgot to add a point my parents think i'm seccretive bcos i've a boyfriend or i'm like going to get into a realtionship kind!
yep!
so b4 answering why i'm so secretive i will like to tell the world and not only my parents that I.DO.NOT.HAVE.A.BOYFRIEND. yup! I DO NOT! UNDERSTAND!!!NO BOYFRIEND!
AND I DUN PLAN TO HAVE ONE IN THE NXT COUPLE OF YEARS AS WELL!!!!
get it!
ok so now to why i'm so secretive, as i said i hate it when they just come up behind me reading everything i'm chatting with my friends
but i think its rude! really rude!
and i respect my privecy as well as the other persons privacy alot!!!!
and if you havent know yet I.AM.A.VERY.PRIVATE.PERSON!
get it!
i'm shy and i dont share everything with everybody! get it!
i have my own personal sapce which i value alot, so dont come in without my permission! its just that i am a very private person and not that i am hiding something!
ive got nothing to hide!
and i have told my mum about every male friend i have! and my mum sort of knows them as well!
so its super clear that i'm not hiding anything!
crazy!
not only on facebook! but worst my handphone gets kidnapped at times and my messages are read! how polite is that rite?
and i dun even peep when people are msging, cos i know its super rude to do that! but here apparently my privacy and feelings are not respected!
so every guy that messages me becomes my boyfriend!
you know i dont mind if you are doing it for fun and to tease me, but i mind my messages being read and i mind being paired up with not so nice ppl!
hello! my feelings are at stake here!
argh!!!!

thirdly, actl i changed my mind on this i'm not gonna blog about it!
maybe i'll just touch and go
patience have definetly taught me a lesson in a good way and its bcos i waited and its bcos i said no that ive learnt the lesson to tell the difference between whats real and whats just for the past time!
and as i believe slow and steady wins the race- same theory applys to this also, as long as i take it slowly and dun rush into it my feelings would be spared and i wouldnt have to be hurt!
so i'm thankful ive got patience! thanks!

yup!
k thats it!
bye!

2011-06-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!
ive been going out like for the continuous past 3 days! my feet are super painful!
tuesday went to british council then went to clementi mall for abit of shopping where mum met her relatives whom she hasnt seen in like 18 to 20 years!
long time right!
yeah! super tired there!
yesterday went jp- got fathers' day gifts, my cousins birthday present, 2 dresses for myself(super cheap i tell you 2 dresses for below $30)and a bag for myself! yay!
today we went to serangoon road to collect bro's birthday photos but its not rready yrt! and this the 3rd time already!!!! wdh!
tmr ive got singing class!
ive got a new p4 tuition!
i'll upload bros birthday photos in nxt entry!
i'm sleep deprived at the moment!!!
and oh ya! breaking dawn's trailer is out already!!! go watch ppl!!!!
i'm so excited! but it comes out nov 2011! and part 1 only!!!
gah!guess ive to wait long long!
i'm always waiting!
haiz!
anw nxtweek! mon going out with jc friends, tues tuition, wed got tuition, thurs got singing class and fri tuition and going out with liuqi! yays!
k bye people!

2011-06-03T19:21:00.003+08:00

i think ive lost my laughter and my smile
i dunno i have not laughed my heart out in a long time
i havent laughed till it ached!
ive lost my cheerfulness..
i realised this yesterday when i found nava's christmas card for me and she mentioned there about my cheerfulness and smile, thats when i realised i ve lost my cheer and smile.
i cant find ways to make myself smile, yes its ways to make myself smile and not find someone or have someone there to make me smile!
somehow whenever i become close to someone after a few weeks or few months they just disappear.
i dunt know why
i feel lost and confused. really
and thats partially bcos for the 101th time ive learnt my lesson not to trust anyone fully.
i dunno i just trust people, and they will just disappear sometime.
i need a jacob black(not taylor lautner but the character)
the warm and uunderstanding friend who'll be there for me
i need to laugh, i need to smile fully from my heart.
i'm sorry to my readers(dont really know if ppl still read my blog). i'm trying my best not to blog this kind of posts but i cant help it.
i need to smiile naturally.

2011-05-22T22:12:00.004+08:00

ok so i guess, i'm the official loser now!
and everyone else like are luckier than me!
i feel so bad! like so down!
i'm seriously sick, really sick of talking about uni app already! and its always ya i got already at the other sid and i'm always no i'm still waiting!
why like that!
how long can i hold on to my patience you tell me!
esp when all around me everyone's successful except me!
i'm really sad and down!
and you know whats the worse part! my parents have given up! its really hard when you have no support at all and you are just holding on to that thin line of hope alone and as hard as you can!

and then another side is the well known silence again!
who do you think i am! one time you are like my confident then next time you dissappear!
can you stop playing with my feelings pls!
stop it really!you are hurting me in that process of playing. its fun for you not for me, so pls!
one time you are there another time i'm standing alone and feeling so lonely!

argh!i feel like giving up but somewhere inside me something is just telling me not to! so dun play with my feelings at this moment!
thanks!
i do not have support and people to cheer me on so do not play with my feelings!
i feel weak but i'm not giving up!
just when i need someone no one's there
life is tretaing me extremely nicely

2011-05-20T22:24:00.001+08:00

hmph!!!!!! I AM STILL WAITING!!!!

2011-05-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

yo ppl! supposed to be sleeping now but I AM HAVING MIGRAINE!!!!
so cant sleep so i'm blogging!
but seriously idk what to blog also!
1.bro's birthday was good except from the start to the end of the birthday everybody was telling something to me every second! so i was like running everywhere to get ppl stuff and do things for them - i've to add IN MY HEELS!!!!
gosh! you know how painful my feet and leg is now!!!!
goodness!
damn painful!
and in between have to pose for photo and i had to keep my cool head and stop myself from bursting cos i was like a super imporatant person there! - the organiser!
but overall it went well!
2.i spoke out my feelings! yes i feel better but i still feel sad! idk why! but whatever the reason hopefully my mood lifts bcos i hate this moody me!
i think i did the right thing whatever it was and i dont feel guilty anymore!!
yup
3. NUS rejected me! i was super heartbroken when i saw that they reject me but i guess i just have to except the fact that i dint get it! but just that it has been like my dream for like 15 years! so yup i do feel upset!
and plus it is even worse cos i havent received any letters from any other university as well!
i think my option left would be appeal or james cook uni!
but i guess if i really want to study then surroundings should really not bother me!
but i still have a tiny weeny hope that ntu will accept me! i'm still not giving up! my parents gave up already but i havent! i still have hope that i'll be accepted!
yup!it may sound foolish but i still have the hope!
4. class outing today but couldnt go!
went to choose the photos of my bro's 21st birthday!
i should say the photos were really nice! i'll upload when i get them!
but sure in facebook!
5. i love my family! even if they sometimes ccan give up on me, they nvr fail to cheer me up!- esp my cousin!
6. i want say something else but i guess i shall not or it may land me in a difficult and complicated situation!
so um ask me if you want to know!- chances if you're close to me i sure tell you!
7. the photo below, my bro and i, i was wearing super high heels but still i'm shorter than him!!!!! imagine i nvr wear heels! i would be so short!!!!
8. i m logging off! bye peeps!idk how many ppl still ead my blog lah but still bye!

2011-05-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

k i'm back from my bro's 21st birthday!
it was good!
but i was having migraine!
from yesterday!
i am so tired i havent even take my make up off!
i'm really tired!
it was good - the party really!
went there early to take photo and do up the decoration and stuff!
my eyes closing!!!!! i havent take out my contacts also!
ah!!!!
so tired!
but there were many late comers!
tues theres' 09s29 meet up! but i dunno whether i can make it!
may not be able to make it!ve to go colllect the 21st birthday photos then evening ihave tuition! so i dunno!
k i cannot think of what to blog and i am gonna do something important now so bye!

i

2011-05-11T01:35:00.004+08:00

k i cant take it anymore! so i'm blogging this!
if it doesnt make sense to you then um dont bother reading!
and its not that ive hurt someone intentionally or did something wrong, i just feel i should say this!
k here it is!
i'm really sorry to a particular person!
i dont know why i'm saying sorry but i feel that i have to do this!
i dont really know if i have ever hurt your feelings, but if i have then i'm sorry! i'm really sorry cos i nvr intended to hurt you. never. really
but i think whatever you are going through now is becos of me! and i feel guilty for that! i shouldnt feel guilty but i am!
i dunno if sometimes you do something on purpose to get my attention( i should say yes you did get my attention), but those things you have commented has made me ponder if i have hurt you!
i know how you feel! i really do trust me!
i know you have everybody around you but i think you still feel hurt
i'm really sorry about that, and i really think you should just come and talk to me about it! i will understand and i promise to understand and listen!
i feel sad and hurt that i hurt you.
i'm really touched at the effort you made and the little things you did and tried and i really appreciate it! i respect you alot!
but maybe its bcos i'm not as brave as you ive to admit, i am shy yes and i can be abit stubborn, that i cnt do what you do and did!
i am afraid i'll hurt you, i'm afraid i'll hurt people around me and around you and maybe afraid of myself.
i'm sorry i am being like that, but i cant help thinking of others b4 myself and hurting you in that process! i'm deeply sorry!
i feel we should make the friendship between us stronger rather than let it sink! but if it is a pain for you to talk to me than its okay, i'll move away silently.
but i'll definetly rmb you bcos i do not keep my friends im my head but i keep them in my heart, everyone of them and of course you as well. you have been great and will continue being great in my mind.
i should say your absence has definetly made me think in another way and your silence towards me has really made me reflect let alone make me feel lonely!
if you still read my blog, i'm saying it again i'm sorry and hope you'll forget everything! thanks and hope to hear from you soon! and sorry again:)and hopefully this message gets across!and i think if you can read bwtn the lines i'm sure you'll get the message!

i actl feel better now!

2011-05-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

k i'm back blogging!
firstly its my bro's 21st birthday today, so happy birthday bro!
i bought him an ex polo tee and a brooch to go with his vest for his birthday outfit.
okay!
shall update now!
1. I STILL HAVENT GET AN ACKNOWLEDGEMENT YET!!!!
2. mothers' day celebration- cousin and i planned a picnic by the sea
and surprisingly my mum agreed! hehe! so sunday afternoon went down to east coast park and celebrated mothers' day! we brought home cooked food like - egg mayo sandwhich, sausages, fried chicken and cake oh and mee siam specially cooked for us by my uncle!
my cousin and i had the most fun cos we were the most excited and mad ones!
haha! we played at the beach, picked up seashells, took photos, played frisbee( which was a failure bcos of the super strong wind), played volleyball( where i came to know mum played great volleyball!), cycled(the bicycle was too high for me cos my bro took it and we took turns to ride, i had to tip toe to climb onto it and my feet couldnt touch the ground hen i sat on it!!!!), laughed alot and got sunburned!!!! yay! overall i had a great time! oh i bought mum a bag, my maternal aunt and grandma cake, small bouquets for paternal aunts!
3. bro's birthday party,
cake to be ordered - done
happy birthday wordings - done
bro's birthday outfit - done
confirm dj - done
decorations for the tables - done( and i tell you its baskets which i took coloured wires and put in beads and wrapped ribbon around the sides - to just do one it takes almost 1.5 hrs)
confirm no. of ppl attending with safra - done
my dress - done
almost everything done!
but still need buy chocolates, gifts for children, and gifts for the games!!!!
and think of my hairstyle! hehe!
yay! glad almost everythings done!
4. i m feeling lonely! talk to me pls!
k byes!

2011-05-02T22:00:00.003+08:00

the question was always "why me?"
but now i'm asking "why not me?"
everyone in the world is getting answers, oppurtunities, golden chances, bright futures
except me!
you know its fustrating!
really fustrating!
ah!!!! why not me!!!
i am really fustrated!
thats one!
another one i'm getting fustrated at someone cos he is obviously not appreciating anything at all! like what the hell!
like i'm doing so much but i dont see that little appreciation and thanks in his face!
how irritating!
thridly i think i'm getting so fustrated bcos i m sick at the moment!!!
and its really sickening to be sick at such a time!
and another thing i'm fustrated at is tuition!
everything dunno everything no!
if you dont help yourself how the hell am i suppose to help you dude!
yup!

2011-04-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

i am beginning to dislike logging in to facebook because it is constantly kinda discouraging me!
but i refuse to let my optimism down whatever it is!

2011-04-26T16:47:00.002+08:00

i really dunno why i am going through this!
was this my fault?
that i choose to do something that has brought it this far and has been disturbing my thoughts almost every minute?
i feel bad for doing that, but at the same time i dont know what i'm doing!
i'm not able to move on or give it up
i really dunno what i m doing!
and i'm sick of waiting!
sick of waiting for uni results, sick of waiting for the truth to just come out from someone, sick of waiting for the phonecall regarding the party, sick of wiating for the day to past, sick of waiting for messages, sick of the whole week to past by like that!
i'm just sick of wiating!
and i'm sick of having no aim everyday and just aimlessly passing every moment!
argh!
today has been the most aimless and boring day ive ever experienced1
i would mostly have at least one thing to do almost everyday, but i dont know why today has just been empty!
like literaaly empty that it has started to make me think of all kind of things!

2011-04-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

my bro's birthday invitation cards!!!
nice?
i designed them!!!

the gold one

the purple one
yes1 mailing is done!!!
nxt step words for the birthday and all the decorations!!!
there's like 2 weeks left!

okay! today i went swimming with nava and we met sahana there!
what a small world!
haha1
we swam and played all kinda nonsense!
hehe!
yup until i'm super sunburned, tanned, and my nose is red now!!!
hehe!
but it feels great to exercise!
yay!!!
i swam!!!
okay! lameness of myself!
oh i'm sorry to people who chat with me on msn today that i nvr reply you properly, i was bz mailing the invitation card-thats no.1, no2 my mum come back from work and kept coming inside my room to disturb me! idk why she in such good mood also!
okay yup!
ive got singing class on thurs and on fri i'm going shopping with my cousin!!!
yays i'm so excited!!!
yay!
i'm in super good mood after swimming and i think its also because my friend say my invitation card looks nice! yay!- cos my parents nvr say its nice they just nod(i was so upset i tell you)
okay! bye peeps!!!
love ya!

2011-04-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

hi guys!
back to blog!
k blogging mainly because i feel like reflecting!
something that happened today just made me reflect or maybe just think..
i m upset at the moment- which im not supposed to be but i dont know just upset.
and i dont feel like talking to anyone rite now
but i have to say that incident has definetly brought me to the right thinking.
i have been focusing on the wrong thing- k rather than wrong i should say not the most suitable thing i should be focused on and thinking off at this point of time.
i should have focused and being worried on the other thing but i was more worried of the second thing!
if you dont understand what im saying then its ok! i m just letting go of my feelings!
but whatever it is i am thankful for that incident for having woken me up!
on a lighter note i am going swimming with nava tmr!
yays!

2011-04-21T13:06:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!
i have officially finished designing bro's birthday card and also its ready to be sent out... just waiting for parents to come back and see then its ready to be sent out!!!
its simple cos parents wanted to keep it simple! but not so easy though, i had to write the same thing for 20 cards!- neck pain hand pain!
but i am satisfied with the end product even though i am not really happy with it.
hehe!
i mopped the whole house yesterday and i m aching all over now!!!!
my god!!!- but it means i'm exercising and its good!!
hehe!
i have decided to go for another camp from23-25may.
but i wont tell them yet cos what if something crops up suddenly!
yeah!
plan to go swimming with nava on monday, just a quiet swim but then i rmbered that jurong east swimming complex would be closed! so have to find other places to go swim!
yup! havent swim in ages!
my next project would be the wordings for the happy birthday!
i have tuition tmr!!!!i shifted it to the morning cos its an holiday!
yup!
k i really got nothing to blog about already!
bye guys!

2011-04-18T20:21:00.002+08:00

i have to say the anger has definatly subsided and your actions are making me smile! i just cant stop smiling! or even laughing to myself!!!!
thanks for making me smile!!!
haha!
yes! hi guys!
went to plaza sing to find invitation cards for bro's birthday!
and finally finally got it!
so preparations for birthday is in half swing!
haha!havent full swing yet!
yup!
okay got go...searching for ideas for the birthday card!

2011-04-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

k i'm back from the super duper bz day i had!!!
8.00am - woke up had tuition till 10.30am
today's tuition was not as bad as yesterday!!
he was just stoning all the way throughtout- i was so fustrated really it changed my mood and was super irritated that i told the mum
and you know what the mum said?
"is it? but he was so excited to come to your class, he kept saying today got your class in the morning and even after sch"
and to tell you the truth it made me smile but not for long - the irritation still persisted!
yup!
but today he was much much better!
10.30am- 11.00am was doing tuition stuff while waiting for parents to get ready!
11.00am set off to james cook university
reach ther at around 11.35-11.40
had a campus tour so it was like 2pm when we got out!
headed to the verge in serangoon road to get all the birthday stuff for bro's birthday!
till like 3.15pm!
ate lunch after that till 4pm
then mum wanted to get some things at the tekka market so followed her there
left serangoon road at around 4.30pm
reached home at around 5pm
ran to the shop nearby my house to get a baby set as gift for my friends baby(she just delivered and invited me to her baby's naming ceremony)
reached home at 5.30pm which was supposed to be the time which i should get out of the house1
so i did everything in lighting speed and left house at 5.45pm
reached je mrt at 6pm sharp
met sathiya priya and we took on the super long journey to tampines!!!
damn far!
but we talked for most of the trip!
so it seemed faster!
the baby was relly cute!!!
haha
after the ceremony took some photos then left at around 9.15pm
and agian the uper long journey!
reached home at 10.40pm!
bathe, eat, watch tv and blogging now!
and i have

2011-04-14T13:00:00.002+08:00

today is the tamil new year!!! so happy new year to all indians out there!!
i woke up with high spirits and was happy all the way till few minutes ago!
firstly, i'll talk about the tamil new yaer!
i dont rmb this amount of excitement and celebration few years ago also!
like i dont know why suddenly they recognize it and celebrating it in such a grand way! but whatever..its nice to know they are celebrating it in the radio, the tv and many more!
and also i love festivals so im enjoying it!!!
and ya i cant wait for diwali cos like for the past 3 years i have been celebrating diwali really quitely bcos of exams exams and exams! so i really cant wait for diwali!!!
yeah
and a few minutes ago i read something that someone posted and my excitement and happiness just fell!!!!
god! i hate it!
but its okay! i'll stay strong!....if its being done purposely!
i have singing class today which classes with my aishwarya rai's movie at night!!!
i ahve to basically fly home!!!! how i wish i had a broom to fly on or i was in the harry potter world, i could just apparate!
and if i was i in the harrypotter world i could just stupefy that particular person
or just perform the ridikulus charm!
argh!
k bye ppl! and happy new year again!

2011-04-13T18:40:00.002+08:00

I AM SO NOT TALKING TO THAT PARTICULAR PERSON!! WHATEVER COMES MY WAY!!!
i am seriously angry!!!!
it was not even my fault lah!!!!
idiots!!
i so need a person to talk to and complai to...
like i really need someone to blast out!!!
but apparently everyone's too bz with their lives to even talk a few words with me!!!
what would you say if a person is talking to you like quite often and suddenly they tell you to keep in touch!!!
like its like telling in your face i dont want to talk to you anymore!!!
i feel angry!!!! argh!!!
i really need to talk to someone to burst my feelings cos i cant say everything in the blog!!!
like over lunch or something!!!
but like i said, no one will come so whats the point...i shall just talk to myself!
how pathetic am i!!!
okay but i think i am already pathetic, i went to imm with me myself and i to shop for bro's birthday!
i walked the whole imm like i think twice!!!
and the nxt day supposed to go plaza sing by myself again but mum say she want come along so we are going on sat!
but in a way i'm getting used to the loneliness but im scared to get used to it as well! but i have to admit going imm alone, i felt abit independent and i like the feeling!!
and i have to say by that keep in touch thingy, i feel i have been taught the lesson of dont rust anyone again!!!
i feel weak that i trusted that person! but not anymore!
thanks for making me wake up!
thanks
k i feel better now:)

2011-04-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

more photos
from cousins camera

icecream

boat

looking up picture 1

imitating the doll(failed)

looking down

failed looking up

looking up 2

i find his expression damn funny

group photo

looking up again

2011-04-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

k updating!!!
i got alot of things to tell!
1. went out with cousins and aunts today!!! yays! photos below!!!
as usual i was excited to see everything! haha
simple boat also i excited!
haha! headed to clarke quay after tuition today...
ate icecream(super nice), then walked around abbit then headed to marina bay sands!
ate lunch there and then walked around!
i was exxcited at the lion king exhibition, the ferrari shop that had a ferrari car(the F1 kind), the sampan boat that is in mbs, at prada and everythig there actl!!!
haha!
yup! its was really good going out with them!
yayness!
2. my cousin promised to go shopping with me after her course finishes!!! yayness!!! looking forward to it! cos seriously and truely speaking she's the best shopping partner!!!!yays!
3. there's this idiot trying to put up an act!!!
but i'm left in a confused state now!
k not now about 10 mins ago cos i just took a decision that i will nvr talk to taht person again ever!!!
until that person talks to me PROPERLY and not those one word kinda answers!
god!!! i am angry with myself for even taking the effort to talk to that person!!
how rude! one word answers!!!
and that person was the one talking so much in the beginning...
you know i think something happened!
the field is always greener on the other side
yup!
k wadever!
ya!
k byes my darlings!

2011-04-09T22:10:00.006+08:00

the singapore view

me and my cousin crazy pic 1

crazy pic 2

my own crazy pic

me with crazy shoe!

bro with ferrari

carzy cousin with ferrari(she was supposed to act shocked)haha

cousin with ferrari

me acting shocked with ferrari!haha

and the ferrari alone!!!

casino!

casino (cousin(ranjeet bro))

casino (bro)

casino(me)

casino(cousin-shangari)

boat!

boat 2

bro with lunch

the super filling lunch!

lunch again!

me and cousin carzy pic 3- the toilet mirror

the four of us!

the girls!

the boys!

inside marina bay sands

clarke quay and singapore river

clarke quay and singapore river

me and my food(bro's phone cam)

icecream!

m&m's!!!

2011-04-04T20:07:00.002+08:00

i watched sucker punch today! and it was nice!
oh with sanjana!
we met at 11(actl 11.15)i was late cos had to finish household chores than go!
movie was nice!! womaxn power but i dont agree with the ending! quite unfair!!!
yup!
then we were supposed to go shopping, but sanjana didnt want to go so i went shopping on my own!
i searched for a bag, went popular, went find mum a pencil box and a water bottle, pack lunch and then proceeded home.
while in jurong point guess who i met...dearest ahtherai!!!
so nice to see her! really i was so in good mood after i saw her! haha!
then in the bus saw this ex-sch mate...i think she was in in A01 i think lah...but she was in my geog lecture lah... ya...
and she came to sit beside me in the bus...i think she knew me, but quite odd rite, usually you would not sit beside a person you think you know...but oh well! doesnt matter!
after coming home ate lunch and spring cleaned my house! how good i am!!
i'm such an angel!!!
say myself haha!!!
i hate mondays cos i goes exceptionally slow!!!
god!!!
then groccery shopping with mum
oh i had a nightmare yesterday! actl morning mare
it was so scary!!! i woke up breathing so heavily like i run 2.4 like that!!!
so scary!
ya....thats today!!!

i feel like i'm drifting away from my friends ....idk me or them!!!
i dunno whether i should like just continue talking to them or dont cos idk whether they actl want talk to me anot!!
damn sad k!!!
like everyone just shutting down my window in their computers!!

ya!!! but you know an odd thing! however sad inside i am and how much of the feeling i get that my friends are drifting away...i dunno i cant help but feel happy all day long!
haha!
i also dunno why! i have a feeling its singing classes! but who cares! i m happy and optimistic!
can already!
haha

my mum is starting to think that i'm lazy and all that cos i m not working ! wadever!
now she want me go for classes! foreign language classes!!!
i think i'll end up laughing in the lessons!!!!

yup! thats it! bye guys!

2011-04-02T16:55:00.002+08:00

yes iam bored!!! entertain me!!!!
i have like so many freinds, but somehow nobody willing to chat with me!!!!
all my chatty friends are either too bz or they just went on with their lives!!!! forgetting me!!!!
:(
anyway i havent been to the lib yet!
haha
planned schedule for nxt week so far is, monday shopping and movie with sanjana and two other havent confirmed people!!!
tuesday rot at home!
wednesday prayers at home(so i'll be bz)
thursday rot at home in the afternoon and singing classes in the evening
friday rot at home!
seriously everytime monday comes i only look forward to thursday bcos of my singing classes! like seriously!!!
i am so bored!
oh i told you im taking up tuition rite!
during tuition class i can like sleep actl!!!
everything mives like a tortoise during lessons!!!!
i almost lost my patience on friday! haha...but i didnt!!!
for that i think i deserve some award!
haha!
I WANT TO GO SWIMMING!!!!
ITS BEEN AGES!!!
last time i went was with liuqi during the a'level period....i think 1 or 2 weeks before A's!
that is so long ago!!!!!
yesterday on vasantham they screened this classical dance film, and everytime i see that film i'll get inspired to start dance again! then i'll rmb my last dance teacher and be de-inspired!!!! haha!
yeah!
k i dunno wad to blog already so bye my darlings!!!
love ya!

2011-03-30T16:09:00.003+08:00

k updating updating
yesterday we had s29 girls night out!
it was an absolute pleasure to see the girls again!!!!
monday night went out with hafizah, kasturi.s, sanjana, bhavani - the s28 and s29 girls!
haha
absolute pleasure to see them too! and we had lots of laughter!!
monday's dinner at delifrance at imm and tuesday's dinner at bugis steam boat!
yays!!
nxt week planning to catch a movie and do some shopping with sanjana and also celebrate the freedom of hafizah from work with a movie!
haha!
she's so happy that its gonna be over!
haha
well...i have took up tuition for the moment!
not earning high!
i have this permanent tiredness in me! i'm pretty sure its not laziness! cos my body tires out easily!
and i'm dead bored!!! so ppl you want go out and you have no one to go out with call me ppl!
weekdays lah, weekends my family's home!
i've been wanting to go to lib for like 3 days already but i'm just not going!!!
i'll go by friday!!! promise!!
i want a bag!!!! and ive to visit popular to find assesment book for my tuition kid!!!
yup!
k bye ppl!!!

2011-03-22T15:07:00.003+08:00

updating!
vanavil over! it was really good with lots of things happening before and after.
but it was a great show- so well done to the juniors!!!
oh and we got trophies!!! so nice rite! yays!
nxt day had guests to entertain..they came for lunch
went to visit grandma in the hospital after that
she had a small op
went to visit everyday since then.
and she's staying in my house now...
went out with cousins on sunday!
and suddenly everyone's is inviting me for dinner!
haha
so i have 2 dinner dates nxt week
mon with friends
tues with classmates-girls
yay!
below is the vanavil photos

one day before vanavil - friday

group photo

practicing

practicing on stage

on vanavil day afternoon rehearsal
the juniors were so stressed up and screaming here and there while we were painting our nails and taking pics! haha
on the actual day

colourful picture 1

with shades!!!

colourful picture2

my partner! sanjana and me

colourful picture3

2011-03-08T14:08:00.002+08:00

k i have absoultuly no mood to blog!
cos i dunno what to blog!
haha!saturday's vanavil and rehearsals going on this week!
hopefully everything goes on well on saturday!
plan to go ntu in the morning but u see how first!
i feel so dead now!
haha..but ya!
i'll blog after vanavil okay...
bye!

2011-02-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

k..this is for my cousin...cos he complained i nvr blog about him at all
so this is for him...
he is asking me to say all sorts of super stupid things about him here! but sorry to dissappoint you my dear cousin! i wont!
haha...
i'm actl surprised you read my blog!
haha
and what i'm gonna say is thank you for being there for me when i needed someone to talk to! - even though you are like 2 years younger and youre thinking is really super not matured..thanks
the convo we were having just now about my results and future plans...even if i really didnt want to talk about it..you made me talk about it and i actl feel lot more better!!
thanks a million!
i just wish you all the best fro everything! and dont be too childish1
take care of yourselves!!!
and i have been really blessed to have a cousin brother like you!
and you asked me to say that god really knew what he was doing when he created you but i beg to differ he didnt...he should have made you my brother! haha!
but i treat you as my own brother though....haha
and ya!
all the best kid!
i such a sweet sister rie?

2011-02-27T23:17:00.002+08:00

k a photo of me and my cousin at the wedding dinner
other photos i havent get yet
haha
k...some updates actl i got nothing to update...
but i am freaking scared of results!!!
yup!
k bye!

2011-02-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

hi guys...i havent been blogging os ive been super bz over the week...
one is the vanavil alumni dance which has luckily is at the finishing stages now...
maybe by next monday hopefully will finish..then we still have costume shopping to go to....and also to coordinate the dance together...
yup
number two cousins wedding! its over phew those 3 days were really trirng...
i didnt take photo but i can ask my cousin..
friday was the bangle ceremony then sat the henna ceremony and then sunday the wedding! omg and we had to do so much of things! goodness! one side its like its a once in lifetime thing that you can experience but another side its like omg1 you need spend so much, so much of wrok to be done! haiz
this coming sat still got dinner to attend to...haiz!
which reminds me! results - judgement day!
my aunty scare me its gonna be this friday! i was so gonna commit suicide! its seriously not nice to have results on friday and then dinner the next day!
and i dreamed yesterday that i got a medal of most improved student....and i was one of the four students in the whole batch....but i didnt get the results lah...but i was thinking it should be ood to receive that medal...and also ms tay announced the names of four of us and congratulated us...
seriously i want this dream to come true!
argh!

2011-02-13T19:36:00.002+08:00

before everything! i wish TAYLOR LAUTNER A ROCKING BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!(11/02/2011)
i'm super bored i tell you!!!!
omg!!!
and i feel extremely useless!
like all my freinds are like goonna get thier 2nd month salary and i havent even get my first!!!
argh!
i'm supposed to go for camp 14-16 but they didnt call me for meeting also so i think im not neede in that camp...hopefully they call me for 22-24!
i need my salary!!!
thats one!
secondly singing lessons are getting more interesting and complicated as well!
so like have to practice or you're(maybe just me) a lost soul!
thirdly i volunteered to dance for the alumni dance for vanavil so i'm like bz with that now!!!
and its also getting on my nerves becos of the songs(we keep changing it again and again) and also its kinda hard to choreograph and also everyone's not very cooperative!
argh!
fourthly, there's my aunt's son's wedding in a weeks time and since my parents are like some main ppl in the wedding my mum is being stressed about it...which is extremely not good! cos she is diverting all her anger on me!!!
fifthly, im having extreme bad sore throat!!!!:(
argh!!!
i'm preparing myself for bad results! somehow that gives me a better feeling!
sixthly, someone has started talking to me but at the same time another someone has stopped talking to me!!!!!
argh!!!!
seventhly, I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS AT THIS POINT OF TIME!!!!
OMG...LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!!
eightly, bye

2011-01-31T23:49:00.002+08:00

idiot! what was the freindship for? why did you even make friends with me!!!!
idiot!!!
k...sorry for starting my post like that! but i cnt stand it!!!
k...sorry...updating!
i went for my first camp 24 - 26 jan!
extremely tiring!
goodness!
and my shoes they were extreme hell!!!!
goodness!
there were high elements, night hike, bukit timah hike, general stations and etc etc!!!
even though i had a mentor, it was still extremely tiring!!!! goodness! slept at 2am both days for the camp and couldnt even use my phone throughout the day 1. because the teachers complianed if they see us with phones! 2. i was extremely bz throughout the day to even be reminded that i had a phone with me!
goodness!
lucky i didnt do back to back...i would have died!
many trainers did back to back but i dint cos i knew if i exert my body even more i will definetly black out, and it wont be nice to black out infront of the kids!
but after the camp you get this satisfied feeling which is superb!
the kids on one hand were super hyper and talkative but on the other hand cute!
and they say i look very young like i'm in secondary sch!! haha
i was so happy by that comment...haha!!!
at least i look young!
company there okay everyone's friendly and nice and there's just this vibrant feeling there!
ccalled home and no one picked up on the last day so i made my way back slowly home, took a bus, then a mrt then walked home in the super haevy rain!!!
had a quick hot bath(the water there was extremely cold...and we bath at 1am there)
and i just dropped dead on my bed...at around 4pm..
woke up only for the drama series at 10pm ate dinne and went back to sleep!
nxt day was my best frends birthday and my parents anniversary....which i didnt do anything cos i was so tired!!!
and i have to tell you this...i got hurt in the camp and both my toes are like blue black and super painful!!!!
yeah...
that was for the camp...
went out with family today, tandoori walk to dine...
came back home and decided to walk around at the pasar malam...
saw vatsala after a super long time and we just exchanged hi's!
what!!!!!
yeah!
but we were with our parents so ok lah!
then saw my hmt friend kaveena
i bought a blouse and a dress! i love them bth but i dunno where to wear the dress to?
yeah..thats it...
i am angry with a person!!!!
like really angry!!!
i hate this kind of people who just wlak away suddenly!!!

2011-01-16T15:35:00.002+08:00

a quick update before i get bz again!
i have been extremely bz helping mum and dad for thiapusam preparations...
last fri i went for the training session of innotrek...and it was good...
yup...
so i am going for my attachment camp on 24-26 jan!
then secondly i went for my first classical singing lesson...and it was extremely extremely awesome!!!!haha...
and for the whole 1hr session she was so nice to me(the teacher)
she was giving me compliment after compliment i kinda felt abit embarressed! haha
and it was one to one
haha
and she changed my lesson to thrs 8.30....and guess what now nava can come too!!!yays!!!!
and oh ya...kt actl backed out for the camp thing...and she's joining it again!!!!yays!!!!
this is the dunno how manyth lesson i m getting on staying patient...it pays off!!!
yaysss!!!
okay..next three days ill be extremely bz!!!!i am half dead already...oh ya...i gained weight during the a'level period and the holiday period...
then now i lost alot of weight...that i am starting to feel light and weak at the moment...
haiz!!
and okay last update..
i dreamed that i was harrypotter!!!!haha
but somehow i was harrypotter but i was still me..like a gal and smae face and stuff!!!
haha...then the first part is like i was trying to catch a evil person so i threw the drain cover over the face ..i dint have a wand so i ask my sec sch classmate che chen to stun the person and he said super softly...stupefy(the curse to stun ppl)...i got irritated and i grabbed hermoine's wand on the table and shouted stupefy! haha...and the whole thing happened in jj's chem lab!!!haha
k...seecond part...
i was harrypotter and i took part in the triwizard tournament which happened in harrypotter nad the goblet of fire!haha...
and they ask us to bring our handphones into the maze but my phone didnt have batt and i somehow knew i was going to win...
and to reach the maze we have to swim across a ocean...
and so while we were swimming...siti and her sec sch friends were at the ocean floor (standing) to come and support me!!!
haha..
so i swam down to her and passed my phone, and money to her to keep for me!!!
haha...i was friends with cedric diggory!!!!hahaha
omg!!!
how i wish all this was true!!!
that i could stupefy my bro since he is irritating the wits out of me!!!!

2011-01-12T11:32:00.002+08:00

yo ppl!
some updates...
sunday
went out with nava to find classes for our classical singing lesson....
went there and didnt know which exit to take from the mrt and ended up walking around the whole tajong pagar!
and when we found out the place at last...it was closed!
so we decided we'll come back the next day....
i went to the library after that...borrowed some books to keep me companied for the hols...yup...then nxt day..nava said we'll meet at 2.15pm..
and i was there at 2.15pm sharp....at clementi mrt station!
and i waited and waited and waited and nava didnt turn up...
1hr passed...so i decided to tap out and wait for her at the mrt staion instead...
and i saw this idiot...who doesnt even have manners to say hi!
how idiotic!
yeah...and i waited for another 30ins...and then nava came!!!
she broke the record for the longest wait!!
goodness!!!!
1.30hr late and i waited there alone for her!!!!
haiz!!!!
then we went there again and luckily it was open...and so we enquired on the lessons..
and by the time it was 4.30...like that..
we then headed to westmall to catch a movie...
little fockers...not very nice...but okay....
then headed back home at around 7.30pm....
mum told me she got me a tuition...sec 4 gal weak in maths...and so i said okay i'll go
then kaiting said she'll go with me for the camp thingy....
yay!!!
really those frends i got to know form sec sch...i am able to trust them more then the frends i got recently...
i'm still wiating for their sorry!!
but they are yet to give it to me!!!
and that reminds me...nava owes me a treat for making me wait for 1.30 mins...
and having to come across rude ppl as well!
heh!
k then...i had a horrible dream yesterday night...
1.we got back our a'level results..i got c's in everything except maths which i got an A. then..my points was only 15..i didnt notice it until i got back home and then i count myself and it was supposed to be 50 something...and so i quickly contacted ms heng..and told her about it and msheng was very worried and she went to check with the principal who was my secondary school principal...
then...i was so worried i went to check the result slip again and beside the 15 points i saw in brackets( points taken away because student found drug trafficking)
thiong!!!!
so lame...haha...but i was on the verge of crying when i saw that!!!!
haha...and the i tried to rmb...how i was drug trafficking! and then i rmbered when i was sick...ms heng gave a antibiotics that was not accounted for in the receipt of the medical bill...
and i was trying to explain that to the principal...and crying at the same time...
and then i was saying that i'll nvr make it to the universities with 15 points and stuff! and i woke up!!1
goodness lame but it really freaked me out!
goodness!
hopefully i dont get that kind of results and not 15 points!
damn scary
ya...
thats all.bye

2011-01-07T17:55:00.002+08:00

hey guys...
i feel very guilty whenever i blog cos i havent uploaded dehli photos yet...
sry!!!
but there alot of photos that i keep putting off the thought!!!
hai!
i m engulfed in boredness yet again!!!
i think i will go mad in boredness!

and i think ive made the decision of going to the picnic!
yays
okay...thats the only thing ive to look forward to..
and of course sangeetham(indian classical singing) classes with nava!!

k...bye...i too bored to even blog!

2011-01-06T14:39:00.002+08:00

hey ppl...
i m so very tired now bcos i purposely made myself do alot of housework today!!!
haha..i wash clothes by hand, wash the outside area of my house two times...
iron clothes..
sweep the floor(use the tissue kind)
and as well as help my dad repiar the internet...
haha i m so proud of myself...
haha...
yes...
im tired..
finally after 3 days of being home laone i have company today..
my dad's at home...and i think he will be home till jan end...
hehe
but i can see the workload approaching!
if my dad's home....it also means, there will be alot of reenah do this reenah do that!
haiz!!!
i'm still thinking if i should go for guides picnic!
one: its damn far.by the time we reach there its like 1hr plus plus
two: i cnt eat anything...which also means i cnt stay for long
three: if i go 10am...then we'll reach around 11 am...then i only can stay for 3-4 hrs...
but four: i get to meet aliens again!
should i go?

2011-01-05T16:45:00.002+08:00

okay....i'm dead bored
i've found work...but thats only after 22nd...
everythings after 22nd...
so i am soo bored at home..
sitting home doing nothing...
argh...!!
and ppl keep letting me down again and agian!
which is really fustrating!
argh!!!
although i'm greatful i dont have to go bck to school,
i still miss school somehow...not the studying part though!!!
ive still yet to upload dehli photos...
but not now..
:)
k bye guys!

2010-12-30T14:02:00.003+08:00

i am feeling absoultely down!!!!!
like soo sooo down!
i hate it when people let me down at the last minute...
if you dont like it in the first place just say it straight...you dont have to like say it after my hopes are really high already and the confirming process is really in the finishing state...
like come on ppl!!!
like more than 3 ppl have already let me down in one week!!!
its my fault that ive trusted them!
i am really sad...
and there's this chalet which i really look forward to go and i cant because of the date!!!!!
and there's ppl who refuse to msg me back...
and silence from some other ppl!!!!
i really feel down
and on top of that mum's constant shoutings..."go work! do this , do that!"
and ive to ask the whole world permission b4 i go out with my friends or something!
like seriously i think it was another child or person i think they would alraedy be doing something against thier parents lah...
my patience is seriously being pushed to its limit....
i havnet done anything against their wish or anything but still there's no trust there...
argh!!!!!
there's brother's P.O.P later...hopefully that brings up my spirits....
:(:(:(:(

2010-12-27T11:40:00.002+08:00

its high time i uploaded the dehli photos...but i m lazy!
ha
okay...ive been quite bz for the past few days...
mum held a small dinner for close relatives after returning from dehli
then i went out with liuqi..went to marina square, bugis and je popular...got caught in the super heavy rain ...
although it was a very long time since i got wet...and it felt beautiful! i wasnt in the right mood to get wet...i was having cramps:(
yup..
but yeh...came home dripping wet...haha
nxt day...went out christmass shopping with mum..
then thursday...went out for a small catch up with aliens...although i wasnt in good mood i still loved meeting up with them
came home early though...
bro came home on thurs itself..
and with my bro's help got my ipod done at last...
like seriously...sometimes i really thank god that my bro specializes in tech things and com things because i am an IT idiot...seriously!
haha
saturday...christmas...went out with mum and bro...
and sun we had christmas party at aunts place...
it was really nice to see the whole family in happy spirits..
specially when i didnt see them for quite some time during the alevel period...
the year is coming to an end...
i'm not exactly sure if i should be happy or sad...
but its ok...i'll remain optimistic...:)
looking for job...
i think i am going to go for the one nurul told me about...camp organising i think...
low pay..but still its okay...
i'll take up some tuition as well...
yep...thats it...i'll upload the dehli photos next time...theres so much..

2010-12-18T14:43:00.006+08:00

i'm back...uploading prom pics first!!!

09S29

09s29 girls shot

09s29 with ms heng

09s29 girls with ms heng

priyangha!

vanavil memories...nava, shalini, me and sanjana

haoxiang and me

amir and me

bryant and me

ms heng and me

sathiya priya and me

dhurga chandra, me and sanjana

thaslim and me

kailin and me

irene and me

nava and me!

sanjana and me

09s29's biologist

hyeon and me

sherilyn and me!

2010-12-18T13:16:00.006+08:00

nava and me

jinghui and me!

irene and me

prabu and me

vanavil memories...sahana, divya, me and sanjana

vanavil memories..priyanka, shalini, premala, me and sanjana

prems and me

priyanka and me

sathialingam and me

shalini and me

sanjana and me

sherilyn and me

sun min and me

kailin, liuqi and me

liuqi and me

2010-12-04T11:46:00.002+08:00

yay!!!! A'S is over!!!
what a torture i had been through!!!
goodness!
anw! after bio itself...i left school with hafizah and kasturi to jurong point to watch harry potter!!!
it was awesome for your information!!!
really ggod!
then met mum for shopping
and i bought a dress, shoes, cardigan
and came back home really late...
goodness...damn tired...my leg hurts till now
the next day mum and i went to seranggon road as well ...i was so dead tired after that!!!
goodness!
i dont feel like blogging now actl...
I AM GOING TO DEHLI!
from 7 to 16!
k bye!

2010-12-01T12:07:00.002+08:00

one more paper to go!!!! jia you to all biologists!!!!!!
just one more day hang on!!!!
geog yesterday was fine..the drqs were fine this time but essays were abit hard!!!
but seriously now who cares yar!
:)
bio bio bio....
k bbye! i so excited for tmr's bio paper!
harry potter and shopping for prom after that! yays!:)
byes

2010-11-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

i'm having high fever!!!!!
its like so sudden without any warnings!!!
argh...my head hurts too...and ive simply no strength!
argh...
k.bye..i want go sleep!

2010-11-17T21:49:00.004+08:00

ok i gonna quick blog...
today was a dead tiring day for me!
it was diwali open house part 2
mum and dad invited dad's uncle over for lunch...
mum cooked chicken rice, soup with loads of ingredients, fried mutton, sambal chicken, sambal prawns...
dad's uncle came over with his grandson who was damn quiet and very well mannered...
and they kept saying mum's chicken rice was really delicious...
i should say i'm blessed with a mum who is a fantastic cook!
okay..
i helped mum form 8.30 in the morning all the way to 1pm...
then faster faster go bath and welcomed dad's uncle and the boy..
then everyone luched together and they left around 3..
then mum's friend came down for tea....and left around 5
then at 5.30 the door bell rang, i tot it was another relative so i just opened the door to find my tamil tuition teacher(last time) standing outside
it was such a pleasant surprise for us
i last saw her like 2 years ago and we lost contact...she was or tuition teacher cum mentor cum family friend...
yup..and the most touching part was she came down all the way not knowing whether we'd be home or even if we still stay here...to give us her daughter's wedding invitation...i mean even relatives would just post the invitation but she came down all the way to give us the invitation....
i was really touched!and pleasantly surprised:)
after she left at around 6, 5 mins after that another relative came..
and they were two kids...
and they made a mess of our house....dragging the sofa around....running around, wetting the kitchen floor, omg!!!!and they were like trying to go inside the rooms but i stoped them everytime they tried...but once when i went to kitchen to wash the dishes...they went inside my room and JUMPED ON MY BED!!!
i think my friends, esp my sec sch friends know how particular i am with my bed...
its okay if you want to sit...but i hate children to jump and mess my bed..i hate it to the core!!!!
argh!
even my father couldnt stand them!
they were even jumping on our new sofa!
how irritating!
after they went our house was in a mess!mum and i had to wash up all the dishes, sweep and mob the house cos the children stepped on rice and went to the hall so the whole hall was so sticky, they spilled drinks...omg!
then after that we had our baths again and then my parents went to send bro off!
omg!
i seriously couldnt stand those kids! i was not even 1% of what they are went i was a kid! goodness!
haiz..
anw updates on a/level papers
what the hell was chem paper2?
i could still do chem paper3 to a certain extent...
but this omg!did they forget our syllabus or something?
goodness!
hard to forget about it...but ive to go on...
left with three more papers for me...all the best to all a'level takers on your last few papers!:)
jai you!

2010-11-13T19:41:00.001+08:00

its the 13th of november which means i'm over and done with the first hectic week of A'LEVELS!!!!
yay...yipee!
7 down 4 more to go!
all the best to all A'level takers again...and press on...we are nearing the end:)

2010-11-08T13:32:00.004+08:00

1 DOWN 10 TO GO! (my battle against A'LEVELS part1)

geog paper1, wasnt very bad..
it was ok..
essays were good but drqs were quite bad
hmm!!!
dad came home for about 15mins to take something...
when he saw me at home then he said" all is well"
and when he was leaving he said " dont think about geog already...study for tmr"
deep down my heart, i am sincerely hoping i did well for geog paper 1!
thats it! ive to continue fighting now!bye!

2010-11-02T11:42:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!!1
5 MORE DAYS TO A'LEVELS!!!1
MINUS 2 FOR ME!!!!
OMG!!!I SERIOUSLY WANT TO CRY AND DIE AS WELLL..
I AM SUPER NOT PREPARED!!!!
STILL GOT ALMOST EVERY SUBJECT TO MEMORIZE FOR!!!1
ONE PART OF ME IS LIKE ...AH LET IT COME I'LL TAKE CARE OF IT THEN
ANOTHER PART IS LIKE OH SHIT...I HAVENT FINISH YET!!!1
ARGH!!!!!!
AND THEN THER'E DIWALI IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE!!!!1
T.T!!!!
K BYE...
JIA YOUS TO EVERYONE!!!!

2010-10-17T18:35:00.002+08:00

09S29
the class that i love the most!
thank you for making my jc life so nice and colourful...
you nvr failed to make me laugh!
nvr!
it was a short 2 years with such a wonderful class...which is really sad...
but im glad that 12 years of formal school going education ended with smiles and with the best class!
i love 09s29 and i wish each and eveyone of you all the best for A'Levels and your future endeavours....
if it wasnt for you guys jc life would have been really dull with lots of studying and very little play!
i will miss you guys alot! each and every one of you!
thank you 09s29!:)
to liuqi:
thank you gal for being by my side and lending me a listening year everytime!
the friendship with you has been the best and a freindship that does not have expectations....you were truly a great frend and i sincerely hope we can continue this freindship even if we end up in different pathways in life!
thank you so much everything liuqi! all the best for A'S!

yup!
its such an abrupt end to school!
but nvrtheless, it was the best 2 years with you guys!
loves!
and of course teachers
mdm tay especially! you were the best!
ive nvr seen such dedication and such love for her students in a teacher
thank you mdm tay for the dedication, love and motherly care!
next ms heng!, thanks to her for caring for the class and being one of us...sad that you came 1 year late but you have been a great civics teacher!
thaks for inviting us to your house and being patient with 09s29! thank you!

not forgetting my cca friends of course!
esp nava for always being there for me! listening to all my rants laughing with me on my lame jokes when ppl think its stupid..haha
thank you so much nava!
even if ics was a big headache for me in terms of the workload and the responsibility
i nvr failed to enjoy meeting sessions cos they were nvr meeting sessions but crapping and gossipping sesions.haha
i'll miss you guys lots!
loves!
and to all j2's taking A's this year
all the best for your A's!!!!!
my special wishes to 09s29! and kaiting, nurul and jasmine chong and of course nava!

2010-10-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SO TIRED!!!
i would just go hit the sack now, but grandma staying over, so ive to wait till she sleeps cos later she cnt walk in the darkness in my room....
let me define how tired i m...
on friday , yesterday, i went deepavali shopping from 2pm to 8.30 pm...after that went to have dinner in aunts house and returned home at 11pm..
slept about 11.30 - 12.00
woke up at 4.30 am in the morning...supposed to wake up earlier but i too tired
had prayers in the temple...
then came home around afternoon...ate lunch, then had 1 hour of sleep which was disrupted....
then went to temple again and returned at 9.00pm...
i am damn tired , i feel like just breaking my legs and throwing them away...

i was really not in good mood today
1. 2 days gone without even touching the books
2. i was excessively sleep deprived
3. i was very tired after the whole week of waking up early
4. pe under the scorching sun made me even more drained nad tired...

my interrupted sleep
1. i didnt mean to be hard on that person but i couldnt help in that situation
and also im not a person who gets angry easily
2. it shouldnt even have happened in the first place
3. i think its rude to do that
4. dont use other people's name! - i hate that!

k yeah...thats my anger and not that you teased/ pranked on me...i dun mind that...but there's a limit to evrything!

deepavali shopping has not been completed fully!
oh ya breaking news: i purchased a saree for the first time! ahaha....pink one...i wanted a light blue one but parents say pink nicer so i took it....
and oh ya...when i was purchasing another suit.... the sales person say i very fair and any colur will suit me...and i immediately look at my mum cos my mum always discriminate me that i'm dark! ha!
yaya....wnated to upload bro's pop pictures and mum's 50th birthday celebrations but i am TOOO TIRED!!!!

2010-09-25T11:37:00.002+08:00

i want blog but i just dont know what to blog...
haha..
ok...i just sent in the youths for autism internship program application form...and seconds later they send me a we recieved your application form...and i was damn happy like i selected already haha...
and you know they ask me ...state your top three skills , and i wrote: designing, swimming and singing...
haha
i duno what to write lorh
hopefully they shortlist me!
ok....
things that happened in school,
we got our new timetable that is very squeezed...haha...that my class is split into 3 pe timeslots...haha...very funny
yup...but ok lah...we get to get home earlier and more time to consult teacher...more time to study...
yay
yesterday...mdm tay showed us our prelim overall results, and i tot mine not bad at all...
bad lah but not very bad...like still got hope kind...
but sad thing is that the two subjects that i supposed to do well for my ideal course was my worst done ones...
haiz..nvr mind reenah....jia you
and oh ya...our blogs are monitored! :O
ya...scary..haha..
um.then...i was asking my mum about which uni course she thinks would be ideal for me...apart from science courses...and she said teaching
asked my dad and he said the same thing to...
but my dad....i ask him what course you want me take...his first ans was teaching...i was kind of shocked...
cos last time the ans was always...medicine or something to do with science...
so i ask him why...and he say teachigis quite a permanent job...blah blah...and lastly he added and for this kind of results you're taking you have no chances of going medicine...and become doctor...
wah...
i felt a stab in my heart...
so for that comment that he made i'll work very hard and at least...even if not medicine i'll go some good science courses...heh!
ya..but i seriously dunno why my parents want me go teaching...i do not have the passion for teaching...
i was expecting ans in the line of like designing...
and they didnt say
so i ask...what about designing?
and my dad was the first to answer...he said..no no designing all cannot go!
haiz...my mum just nodded!
and practically speaking i am confused...
i have ideal jobs....i have passion which are quite different individually
one is really expansive....
and my dad i think has no intention on sending me overseas....
haiz.....
anwz,
concentrate on a'levels first lah...
then can crack head on all this..

2010-09-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

i was feeling so high and energetic today morning and evening until my mum pissed me off....
i dont get angry fast but ..haiz....
i so pissed now...
its dad's birthday and i initiated to like go and eat....then she say bro not here ...fair enough so i said go during weekends then she was like ok lorh you'll go i wont come i'm fasting!
its someone's birthday leh...
haiz....
but anw...i m glad im like my father in this aspect...i dun expect anything...
and another thing she took away my earpiece for the phone one!
like she allows me to study with music playing out loud and not through ear piece-.-!
wads the link!
i damn irritated now
another irritating thing happened...
it'll only happen to me somehow...
as in the previous post i was very happy tha i passed my geog...'but now i fail....
thnx to the red pen, the hand and the damn mind that minus one mark from my paper two
should be the biased person again lah
eh its not only me...even my parent could tell that that person doesnt like me and looks down on me...
i didnt even receive a chop- i know childish lah but everyone got a chop and i didnt get! so not fsir...
anw...to that person ....ive seen light for geog already and ill work towards brightening it....
it will become brighter!
heh!
my mum keeps pestering me of my results
i told her maths and geog and she's like only like that....everything 50 marks plus
blah blah blah....
wad could i say...
everything i say will have a countersrgument from her
the thing is she sees me studying everyday...
she sleeps earlier then me and wakes up later then me....
but still....i dunno waht to say...
i know its my life but...
i still need motivation rite!
all prelim result out but i nvr tell my parents cos their expression would always be why like that.....
it has nvr been its ok...you can do better..
nvr....and i mean nvr
i'm a person who thinkin every point of view...
but i cant bring myself to think that way for this...
just cant
everytime mdm tay encourages our class i'll feel very encouraged and as if someone is actl there for the suppport...
but it vanishes as soon as i reach home
i'm really fed up...

2010-09-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

posting posting....
2nd day of term 4 and almost all papers are out... except gp and maths paper 2
breaking news of the year... reenah passed geog for the first time in jj's history!
it is a record break for me....
and when i saw my marks i was flying in the sky already and i am glad i had freinds who encouraged me...thanz to liuqi and zan!
yays!
smiles smiles!
ok...but apart from that my other results suck to the core!
i didnt expect that grade for chem! dissappointed to the max!
:(
bio was hopeless!
:(
maths was fustrating with 10 marks of careless mistakes!
how irritating!
goodness sometimes i am shocked at my genius level.... my careless mistakes are to the level of 1+1=3 kind!
i feel like stabbing myself!
argh!
told tuition teacher marks and she was like er.....you satisfied?
i said...er...ok..but just that ive alot of careless mistakes...
and she didnt answer back
i think she would be thinking in her heart" omg this girl damn stupid...do so many paper stiill score like that...my other student nvr practice also can score 80, how shameful to teach this girl."
ya...
hiaz...
oh ya and i blessed the person who marked my geog paper 2..
i shall expand on my blessings!
the person who marked my paper should live healthily for a 100 years with loads of happiness!

but sure 100% if mr.lim mark sure i wouldnt get that marks
ya...so to the person who marked my paper bless you!
haha..
k bye got to get back to studying...buhbye

2010-09-09T19:19:00.002+08:00

yo ppl...
holidays is coming to an end in 3 more days....goodness!!!
monday...i slacked!!!
i wanted to study but there was my fav actress movie on tv...so abandoned the plan of studying....hehe...studied a bit at nite!
tuesday..my aunt came back to my house which means i have very few time to study!
haiz...
i have been messing up my bro's room...cos i studied there....
hehe
but ive cleaned it up...
wednesday.....
went grocery shopping with mum...to buy basic nessecities of the house
then walked all the way to the ramadan fair near the shell station to get some food...
and walked all the way back...
and i got a headache there cos the whole place smelled of oil...and i repel oil!
but the food looked good it was the thick oil smell...

haiz...
came home and study abit...did chem paper 3...
and something is bothering me to the max!!!
i'm becoming meaner!
heh! my A's are at stake ok!
k anw...
yeah...random msg from liuqi whether want go swimming
so took a sudden decision and to day morning went swimming with liuqi....yay!
we swam...rest talk play a little bit...
and we swam 10 laps...record break ah...
10 laps with breaks in between every lap...hehe
went two rounds in the lazy river slackeed at the massage pool then swam again and headed back home....
or we ate kfc first...
and i got tanned!
but ok lah not very dark...i can see the difference but nobody in my family noticed any difference

damn tired
and my eyeswere so painful....i dint wear googles!
so all the chlorine reacted with my eyes and th erpoduct of it..me looking like some zombie with teary eyes....
haha...now its better...

came home like slept for 5 mins...then aunt came back from apppointment so cnt sleep already!
haiz....
i wanted to study buut just no mood...

haiz...have to jia you for A'S!!!!
i so not ready for A's!
tmr going out with cousin and bro somewhere!
i oso duno where

sat barbeque at hyeon's place....

i still havent bought presents for friends!!!!!
maybe i shalll do it when i go out with cousin tmr! 2 birds in 1 stone! yeah!
k bye ppl!
have to do hmk!...bye

2010-09-06T12:53:00.002+08:00

yo ppl....
its the first day of holidays and i have decided to study...but just to crush my decision there's my fav actress's movie on tv today at 2.30....haiz!
anw...sat went to temple...damn crowded and i was standing for so long that my heels were very painful...
haiz...
sunday i tot...I THOUGHT it was goona be a fun day...
dad wanted fly kite i wnated go west coast play mum was all set to drag bro along and then down came the rain-.-!
argh...
went to jp for a short while to grab a present for her frend...then came home
wrapped the present fro mum....went to aunt's house to deliever the present since mum was not going for the birthday party( she was sick)
played with the puppy for a while...
uncle insisted me and bro to eat...so we ate there and rushed home cos bro had to report back to camp...
then went to send bro off...
today their doing paint ball...haha...laughed at him yesterday itself...its goona be very pain
today morning a very bad morning...my aunt giving us lots of problems....haiya!

i told mum maybe she should be more patient and she started to complian to me itself...then sudenly got phone call ...when she's talking i escaped...
i want study mah

yeah
ive got to do so many things
1.go library
2.buy many mnay presents cos september is just the brithday month for so so many ppl...goodness
3.do all homeworks
4.tuition homework
and at the bottom of the list i wanna watch vampires suck...bro rejected me!
huh!

oh ya....i ignored someone successfully :) no no :D
i think that person is taking me for granted already so i decided to just IGNORE
that person can go :p
hehe...i feel freer...

2010-09-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

i m bored!!!!
gosh...its so boring....cnt even go out!
:(
prelims over chem mcq was ok lah....
but i think more time would have been better:0
hehe
anw.....
my aunt and my whole father's side family is suddenly so interested in me...like wad i want to do after my a's!
and i find it really irritating!
like you nvr cared for so long...suddenly why? kpo!
huh....so fed up!
suppposed to go out wif bro tmr but...mum suddenly want go temple....so i think definetly cant go out wif bro already!
my vampires suck movie GONE!
want go lib borrow book but cnt!
i m so stuck in the house!
hmmmmmm:(:(:(
haiya....anw....
i wanted to blog alot of things but haiya i forgot...so nvr mind...when i rmb then i blog agian....byes

and oh ya....
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DARLING ANGELIA!

2010-08-31T20:06:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so light now...
some last week stories....i am so delightedd i survived the whole of the torturous week yesterday....
so many papers that i was so mentally tired for the last paper...
maths p2 i could do all pure maths question except one part and i could not do any statistics question except the last 2 question on hypothesis testing and correlation only....
i sincerely hope i'll pass maths...pls!
chem paper 2 the nxt day was a total disaster
it was the most difficult paper in the whole prelim examination...
oh my god....
even the planning segment was freaking hard!
i was quite dissappointed actl....haiz...
fri afternoon aunt called mum and told her that she had a great big fall and she needed someone to fetch her to the clinic...
mum rushed down to her house and saw that her leg was swollen so she immediately called dad and say lets go hospital( mum was a nurse last time...quite long...so she's quite experienced)
went to the hospital to find out she fractured her knee and was put on clutches...
so she had no one to take care of her so we are taking care of her...
so fri night, the whole of sat and the whole of sun i didnt study!
i only studied like 2- 3 hrs the whole of the 2 days...
slept at 1 on sunday night cos i was desperate and had to read some bio...
mon morning had bio paper 1 which was ok...managable...
geog paper in the evening was ah!
i had only the last 15 mins and ideas just came flooding in for the question which i was struggling to do....i only managed 1 page on the foolscap... 16 mark essay thats what is making me very guilty.....:(

today was teachers' day celebration which was quite dissappointing!
i would say its quite disorganised...
aces day exercise in the morning....
and then went to the hall had like 2 videos and we were done for the day...
._.!
went to my granny's house afterthat....
spent time with her till about 3.30pm and headed home after that...
i want sleep now...but like very odd cos my aunt at home and i have to help her around....hmmmm....
ok bye guys

2010-08-25T15:40:00.002+08:00

updating updating...
its goona be short
prelims is going on now for me....and it sucks...
i seriously dun feel like study but have to force myself to study!and that feeling sucks!
ewwwww!
ok...maths paper 1 would have been managable if given more time and not in exam condition! so in conclusion paper hard
geog p1...drq's were fine....but my essay!both 9 mark questions also dunno how to answer...so only did the 16 marks one properly... my handwritting sucks in that paer...good luck to the marker!
so in conclusion geog paper was managable but i dun think i'll pass since ive nvr passed geog once in jc at all!

chem paper 3....um...50-50 lah...5 choose 4 to do...
of which 2 were hard and 2 were managable!
did question 2345...didnt do 1 cos i saw energetics and i didnt even read the ques...i just skip!
so in conclusion paper was hard

todays bio paper 2 was a disaster!
i couldnt do it! but essay question 8(b) i wanted give up...
but ok i decided to give it a try and then i finished the essay! i was a bit shock at myself!
bio= hard!

tmr's maths paper 2
friday's chem paper 2
monday is bio paper 1 and geog paper 2
tuesday is teachers day celebration
wednesday is teachers' day
thursday is chem paper 1 and
friday is angelia tan an qi's birthday! yay!

2010-08-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

ive been wanting to blog for like 2 weeks but um just not in the mood...
actl not in the mood now as well but i just dun wan study...

today was the start of prelims and we had gp today...
compo was ok....compre was quite hard....
compo: is education truly rewarding?
that was the question i chose because i happened to read education last nite...
but there was a really damn straight forward question which was so irritating cos it was so unexpected: assess the impacts of mass media on culture!-.-!wth!
ok...yeah...it was smooth hopefully i'll do welll!
paper 2 was about addiction! passage was not boring but questions were really tough...
for AQ...i dint even link to the question i juz vomit out all the information that i knew about it...like mdm tay says...i just whacked...but that nvr works for gp!
so yeah...all the best to me

tmr is maths paper 1...i'll do my best!

i'm having bad cramps and bad migraine now!
its damn painful...
wanted to cancel tuition but mum said" eh tmr your exam you know...and you want cancel today...you ah!"
so i had to carry on with tuition and the result of it, me doing everything wrongly and replying wrong answers!
i was like going to vomit cum faint...argh terrible horrile!

yeah ok...some brief events....
last week was absent from sch on thurs cos of migraine...
its getting from bad to worse...

on tues on the way home from temple at night met my darling:) angelia in the bus!
i was delighted, surprised super happy to see her!
and when i saw her i felt a punch in my heart...
and i realised how much i missed alienz!
gosh its been ages seen we met!
and i think it will become double the ages because of prelims and alevels
chuf asked for dinner tonite....but bcos of prelims i'm not able to go!
i think jas cnt go to cos she's having her prelims too rite!havent heard from her for very long also
yup...love alienz:)

okay...study break was ummm no comments!
i dunno if i wasted my time or whether i did study cos i studied and slept as well...what do you call that?

i feel like scolding someone( a particular someone) now...
i seriously dunno wad that someone is trying to prove themself by not practising simple manners! if youre reading this( which i dont think so), you're just increasing the anger rather than decreasing it. i m trying to reason out with myself to your unpolite actions but the reasoning is fading off....so better practice that manners before the reasoning dies off!heh!i'm come straight and bite you!

i m feeling very lethargic and tired!

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2010-08-08T21:40:00.001+08:00

crap i uploaded 40 photos and only 15 came out!
haiz....
anw irene's bdae celeb was fun and relaxing!
i loved it
i wanted to stay longer...like i already set inside my mind to stay longer but mum msg me come home b4 6pm!
so went back early!
haiz....
i've been slacking for 2.5 days!
k...i shall go upload sommore photos

2010-08-08T21:27:00.008+08:00

2010-07-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

updating.....the week was disastrous...
bad really bad...
so packed...
monday our first geog banding lesson....six of us...bryant, weiming, amir, jing hui, liuqi and me were all in ms zhou's class...
like so lucky...did group work...
went home slept abit and woke up to do hmk...
tuesday...
bio , mslee told us about chimeras...so interesting
geog banding lesson was boring but i styaed awake by writing for the whole 1.5hrs
then after that stayed back to finish geog essay...so i was writing from 11.30 - 3 (including geog lecture)
haiz...my hand was so painful after that...
went to the temple in the evening
wednesday....geog remedial....the superlong chem lesson and civics about emergency -.-!
went home and chiong hmk
thurs had pe which we played frisbee and we were like really running around that the last 10 mins we gave up and went to class...
used my breaks to finish my hmks
tuition in the early evenings was painful cos i was so sleepy...and i kept doing questions on functions which i could do without her help...
evening went temple....
friday...was liuqi's birthday celebration...
we were giving her like bits and pieces of puzzles every 0.5hrs
haha...quite interesting rite liuqi...thank the master mind haoxiang...hehe
and i did a card for her...hope you like it (i think you should better like it cos i scacrificed hmk for you k) hehe
oh ya...in the morning when i was wlaking to sch...it was like drizzling...i didnt want to take out my umbrella cos i was juz lazy...but suddenly got one aunty from behing me..." come gal" and she sheltered me wif her umbrella
i politly smiled and said thanks....and she started talking to me like best friend
" woah so tall ah...so pretty ah...can become model"
my reply " ah...no ah i dun want become model"
" jc ah...you very clever rite?"
my reply" um no lah...(in my mind i was like wait till she see's my marks...she'll just walk away.."
" two years rite? you year two ah?"
my reply" yah year two..."
" woah good luck ah"
my reply "thanks"
and i faster cross the road and escape form the aunty...
and also sellek was watching all this drama and giving me this stupid look...
hiaz...
odd people...but ok must thank the aunty...thank you aunty for giving me shelter....thank you:)
haha
freaky incidents still happening to me..
i have so many hmk but i am slacking alot...
hiaz...
ive to push myself...
and happy birthady to liuqi once again!