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Monday, July 25, 2011

11:16 AM

it feels odd not studying anything for a exam.
i have an test to sit on wednesday but have no materials to study for it-its quite a genearl knowledge thing but still feels weird!
haha!
k monday is sort of my relaxing day! i have tuition only in the evening!

if you ask me how am i feeling right now- i feel vacant!
i dunno!
its tired/sad/fulfilled and satisfied/curiosity and i dont know what else!
bcos of the many events that happened over the weekends or maybe not really weekends-from friday!
how would it feel if 2 ppl who dont really know each other-they know each other through you actually talked to each other
and one of them comes to me and says he had talked to the other person and refuses to tell me what they talked about!
i know it shouldnt concern me but hello- 2 sort of shy people as far as i have known them- talk to each other!!!! esp the one who told me they talked!
i feel awkward k! esp when the other party doesnt really talk to me often now- or should i say not anymore

as i said i feel awkward!
but actl i feel sort of immune to it now!
i dont feel as nervous and hear-beating-fast feeling now!
people say distance makes (or brings might be a better word here) people together - and in fact yes i did get distracted and kept thinking of it and started to miss them and stuff but
i shall add another quote to that-distance brings people closer but continued distance brings people further away from each other
i am saying this cos i do not feel anymore of the feelings i mentioned above
i know there will be a day where i would have to bang into that person and i dont know waht will happen then but as for now i really cant feel anything for it!

not to mention i became immune bcos of the kind-of-rude-manner-to-me way that person behaved to me! and the things that person said made me reflect
at first it was disturbing to see that person write those kind of things
i felt super bad that i have played a role in hurting them and making them feel lost
(them here just refers to one person!)
but i guess that person has done the same share of things or even worse hurt me with an intent of hurting whereas i really did not intend to hurt- i really didnt and i have even said sorry for something i didnt do!
so i dont feel as bad now!
i'm going on with my life!
and another thing i really wanted you to be the first one to know about my future(as in my path in the academic world) becos i kinda trusted you alot and told quite a number of things but i guess since you have just vanished just like that you couldnt be the one to know first.
i dont know if the news has spread to your ears yet but i wont tell till you ask
about anything not only that
i kinda feel foolish to have shared alot of information with you now
i should have followed people's advices but still theres no turning back and i will just face whatever comes in the future head on!
and thanks for teaching me a lesson!
really thanks!
and another thing there was a period of time i really disliked the opposite gender, you came and changed my opinion on them but eversince you vanished just like that i am beginning to feel the same!
seriously cant i trust anyone?

- now to my blog readers if you guys read this and didnt understand what the hell i just blabbered i'm really sorry i just had to pour my feelings!
and its only directed to one person so yeah sorry if you felt that wasted like 5-10 mins of your life making you read my post!
yep!
bye peeps

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