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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
7:54 PM

i m feeling super super low now....
bcos of
1.freakin irritating ppl around me
its soo irritating with them around .i wish i could scream at them bt i cnt...
i am frends with ppl who i do not want to be frends with and i am not frends with ppl hu i want to be frends with...
how irritating is that...
i used to like coming to school to see my frends bt now i dread it bcos i have to c them everyday...its freaking irritating...
and i have frends hu dont appreciate me anymore...
frends hu act nice infront of me and hu knows wad they say behind my back...
u know something...i've never had a sincere ffrend b4...
they show no sincerity and purity in thier frendship to me and i have like dedicated a quater to half of my life to stand by them and support them...but i have had no one so far...except one person that ive found in jc
its really depressing....
sometimes i really do not want some ppls company bt i have no choice.....
and whener i write something on someone on my blog...ppl come asking me "eh...is that me u are talking abt"
and most of the time its the wrong ppl...
like why the frwaking hell are u feeling guilty when u have not done anything wrong...
this proves that u have been doing something behind my back rite...
if u have done nothing u wont feel guilty....
2.my freakin results
soo far my promo papers almost all i have failed...luckily my grades b4 promos have pulled me up to pass my overall...
and the most depressing is maths...my strongest subject and i failed that like really really badly.....
that was really depressing....
and u know..some ppl are like soo irritating when they get back thier results...
like u get ur results i oso get back....if i cn shut up abt it...u jolly well can shutup abt it too...and u dun have to gif freaking irritating emotions and reactions on it....
if u passed soo wad....big deal....at least u could offer to help those failures or if not juz shut it....
ppl here are like kinda depressed....
argh....
i know i look stupid to u...then fine i will remain stupid to u...u dont have to go around proving the point that i am stupid....
and u dun have to go around boasting that the paper was easy or u anyhow do the paper but still cn pass and all that...
i know i am stupid u dont have to behave in a way to send the message to me...
enough is enough
i m nt angry at anyone for their marks bt why cnt u juz mind ur own buisness


3.chores to be done before deepavali and no rest
so many millions of chores to be done....
esp my room cos its super messy...i still have 2 cupboards to go...then still got diwali decorations...still must put henna for ppl...muz do rangoli...arghhh....
and i have to hid all my feelings and put on a smile outside...
4.homework:tutorials.
just after promos haven even recover and homeworks are given
tutorials fter tutorials....
and of course still got OP


and on top of all this worries if i will be promoted...
i don't even want to be provisionally promoted....i'll really die out of stress....
and some teachers keep on saying about retaining jc1 or going to poly....and that teacher who said it like keep looking at me.....
that particular teacher has been looking down on me from the start.....
i really have nothing to say about that...
bt nothing is in my hands now....i juz have to hide all my sorrows all my irritation and put on a great big smile for ppl surrounding me....
i will put all of this behind me and move forward wadever it is....
deepavali is coming and i have to clear my mind in order to be happy

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me

Name: V.Reenah jurong sec girlguides jss1stcoy jurong junior college 28th september 1992 class: 1/4-052/4-063/3-074/3-08 09s29-09/10


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